âWeâve been doing a mighty job of praying for you over at the Blessed T.â He liked to call the church the Blessed T., as if it were a ranch and the parishioners were all cattle waiting for Godâs brand to be burned into their hearts. His homilies were always ripe with metaphors. Cattle sometimes, fish other times, needing to be schooled, lest the Devil shark gobble them all up. The children in the congregation would laugh out loud and the parents would chuckle and nod their heads in appreciation. He was a good storyteller.
He was still holding Jimâs hands. It was odd, thought Jim, because it was the second time in less than five minutes that a grown-up had held onto him as if maybe he was going to slip away.
âAre you library bound?â he asked.
Jim nodded.
âWell, bless my soul, I was heading that way myself. Theyâve got a new Colin Dexter on hold for me. Do you like mysteries, Jim?â
âNot much.â
âI like a good mystery,â said Father Fisher. âMind if I tag along?â
âNo, sir,â said Jim. He had been flustered when he first saw him, but it was hard to keep Ruth Roseâs loathing of the man in mind when you were in his presence. The pastor seemed almost ready to explode with good will.
They started walking and each time the pastor turned towards him to ask how his mother was doing, how school was going, his cross caught the light. It was roughly crafted but contained chips of a beautiful green crystalline stone. It dazzled Jim.
Then the minister said, âI gather youâve been seeing something of Ruth Rose.â
Jim answered, âYes, sir,â before he could stop himself. âI mean, I ran into her,â he added quickly.
âGod love us, sheâs something, isnât she?â
âSomething?â
The minister chuckled. âI guess youâd have to say she was her own person. An original. I admire that.â
They were almost at the library; Jim was counting the steps.
âSheâs full of fire,â said Father Fisher. âFull of
passion
. That is surely Godâs gift to teenagers, isnât it, a fervent spirit.â
Jim knew he had to say something. âSheâs pretty spirited, all right,â he said. Then suddenly he felt as though he had betrayed her.
Father Fisher stopped walking. Out of politeness, Jim stopped, too. The minister was looking into the distance but not at anything Jim could see â his head tilted back a little to one side, like a man listening to some distant sound. It made Jim nervous.
âSheâs a troubled child, Jim,â said Father Fisher. His voice had dropped. He spoke tenderly. âDid you sense that, son?â
âShe seemed okay to me.â Jimâs eyes skittered away from contact. The minister turned to him, stepped between him and the library, blocking his way as if he could see Jimâs impatience in his eyes.
âJim, Iâm not sure if itâs my place to be telling you this, but I feel I owe it to you as a family friend.â His voice dropped further still. âYoung Ruth Rose has had a hard time of it. The death of her father has resulted in some severe psychotic episodes. Do you know what that means?â
Jim shook his head.
âIt means that there are times when she loses it, as you might say. Misapprehends and misinterprets the true nature of reality.â
Jim felt the hairs on the back of his head stand up. Fatherâs voice was so sad and so persuasive that Jim suddenly felt every bruise the girl had dealt him in their first meeting. He could see her bared teeth as she pinned him to the ground.
âAre you okay, Jimbo?â Fisher asked.
Jim couldnât look at the pastor. He nodded. âIâm sorry,â he muttered. âI mean, about Ruth Rose.â
Father Fisher smiled at him and rested a fatherly hand on his shoulder.
âYouâve seen it happen, havenât you?â