tightly packed as pencils in a box. The boat my brother Will and his girlfriend Nina shared had seen better days. The Bonne Chance was a Dutch barge in need of TLC, moored at the end of a jetty. When the galley door opened, Nina gave me a tentative smile. Weâd seen plenty of each other in the last few months, but she still seemed gripped by shyness. Her knitted dress emphasised her slim build, cropped black hair revealing lines of tattooed script tracing the contours of her neck. She stepped back to admit me to the narrow galley. The space had an overcrowded charm, bright enamelware filling every nook and cranny, simple wooden furniture painted in primary colours.
âWill was just talking about you,â she said.
âNothing scandalous, I hope?â
âHe was speculating about your love life.â
My brother kissed my cheek. âYouâre cold, Al. Youâd better sit here.â
Will made room for me by the log burner. He looked in good shape. The shadows under his eyes had disappeared, and so had the ragged beard heâd worn for years. He was almost as clean cut and handsome as heâd been a decade ago,before his bipolar disorder took hold.
âTell us about your new man,â he said.
âNot till Iâve had a glass of wine. Howâs work going?â
âPretty good. I can make smoothies and clean toilets with the best of them.â
âYou still like the people?â
He nodded. âThe juice barâs like the United Nations. I can say hello, goodbye and thank you in Russian, Arabic and Swahili.â
âThatâs three more languages than Iâve got.â
It still seemed odd that someone with a first-class Cambridge degree in economics had ended up in a café in Covent Garden, but any job was better than none. When his illness was at its height, it had seemed like he might never work again.
âHowâs the FPU?â
Telling the truth was off limits. If he knew I was working on a brutal abduction case, it would trigger an all-out panic. âItâs full of boffins with no social skills.â
âYouâll fit right in.â
âCharmer.â His upbeat mood made me chance a risky question. âHave you seen Mum lately?â
His smile faded. âWe went on Saturday.â
âGod, youâre good. Itâs my turn this Saturday. How was she?â
âBitchy as hell, but I managed not to hurl anything at her.â
âAdmirable self-control.â
Tension eased from his face. âHave dinner with us. Ninaâs made chicken casserole.â
âYou donât have to ask twice. It smells heavenly.â
The evening turned out to be a pleasure. Willâs first relationship for a decade fitted him like a glove, his connection with Nina stronger than ever. They even linked hands under the table as we drank coffee. It was only at the end of theevening that she volunteered the news that she had enrolled at London University to do a PhD on Romantic Poetry.
âThatâs wonderful,â I said. âCan you stay on the boat?â
âWeâve got it for another year. My friendâs contract in New Yorkâs been extended.â
Willâs gaze had slipped out of focus, his arm settled round Ninaâs shoulders. Witnessing their happiness made me want to shut my eyes, in case I tempted fate.
âLola says your new boyfriendâs a cop,â he said.
âSheâs such a gossip. You met him years ago. Itâs Don Burns.â
âI donât remember him. Is it serious?â
âHow would I know? The idea terrifies me.â
Nina leant forwards, revealing a tattoo below her jaw, a line of blue-black words too small to read. âYou deserve some happiness, Alice. Maybe itâs time for a leap of faith.â Her soft French accent almost had me convinced.
I walked home across Tower Bridge reflecting on her advice. Until now Iâd kept my feet firmly on the ground,