Free Little Darlings by Jacqueline Wilson

I’ve got new dolls, little sturdy smiling ones, and five tiny felt mice, all in different outfits, but they’re just friends and cousins to my proper family. I’ve got lots more furniture now too: a four-poster bed with a set of rose-silk covers, a television, a tiny bird in a white cage, rugs in every room, pictures hanging on the walls, curtains at each window, but the original key pieces are still my favourites. Mrs Furry has a whole set of saucepans and can serve her meals on special miniature willow-pattern plates. Mr Fat Bruin’ssofa has velvet cushions with little braid tassels. Chop Suey and Trotty and Peanut have roomfuls of tiny toys, including a perfect miniature doll’s house. It has a little hook at the side so it can swing open. I’ve made minute Plasticine replicas of my family inside, playing with another even smaller doll’s house. I like to imagine that inside
that
one there’s another weeny family playing with a crumb-size doll’s house, on and on until it makes me feel giddy.
    The doll’s house is still my favourite possession, even though I suppose I’m much too old to play with dolls now. Sweetie wanted to play with the doll’s house too as soon as she could crawl, but she just chewed on the furniture. She very nearly swallowed Peanut.
    I tried gently distracting her, but it only made her more determined. She started using the doll’s house to pull herself up, hanging onto the little window ledges and buckling them. I couldn’t bear it and tapped her little scrabbling fingers – and Mum saw and shouted that I was a bad, jealous, selfish sister and I must learn to share my toys with Sweetie. I was willing to share
most
things with her, but not the doll’s house. So I dragged it laboriously inside my wardrobe and shut the door on it, so that Sweetie couldn’t get at it.
    I kept the doll’s house in the wardrobe, very sensibly, because Ace proved to be a total menace when it came to wrecking my things. In this week alone he’s spoiled the points of every single one of my felt pens and pulled the head right off Suma, my biggest teddy bear.
    But Wardrobe City is safe behind locked doors. I only open up my world when Sweetie and Ace are out or asleep. I’ve made three more houses out of shoe boxes stuck together, furnishing them all myself, and built a towering apartment building out of wooden bricks. After various terrible castrophes I had to use up several tubes of Evostik cementing the bricks together.
    There’s also two shops. One sells little packets of cereal and small pots of jam and miniature alcohol bottles and a variety of Plasticine ready-meals. The other is a clothes shop specializing in a denim range – lots of little jackets and jeans that I made out of an old pair of dungarees. There’s also a small farm so everyone has fresh milk and eggs every day, and a garage with a fleet of Dinky cars. I’m secretly saving up for a castle, though it’s going to be a bit of a squash fitting it in.
    I don’t ever tell anyone about Wardrobe City. They’d think me weirder than ever at school. I hate school. I’ve been to four different schoolsalready and they’re all horrible. I didn’t mind lesson time at my last school, but Ridgemount House is awful because there aren’t any rules. We don’t even have to do proper lessons if we don’t feel like it. The other kids mess around all the time. I don’t fit in at all. They don’t like me. They call me Wonky Gob. I haven’t got a single friend.
    I can’t tell Mum or Dad. They’ll just go on about the tough schools they attended when they were little kids and say I have to learn to lighten up and join in with the fun and then I’ll soon make friends. Like Sweetie. She is in Year One at my school and every single child in her class wants to be her best friend.
    I hear a howl and a scratch-scratch-scratching outside