Free Gonzo (Rolling Thunder Motorcycle Club Book 7) by Candace Blevins

your hand.”
    She blushed and looked down, but didn’t argue. She looked up a few seconds later and said, “You realize there isn’t going to be anything between us, right?”
    “Yeah. We’re from different worlds but we seem to be doing okay so far. When’s the last time you went out on a date?”
    “I tried again about a year ago. The time before was my second year of college. Dating isn’t really my thing.”
    “Why? You’re a beautiful woman, I’m sure you’ve been asked out?”
    “Do you know what asexual means?”
    “It means you aren’t interested in sex. You don’t have it with anyone.” Surely not. The mere thought horrified me.
    She didn’t say anything, but her face was bright red and I could smell how embarrassed she was.
    “Tell me you aren’t a virgin? You’ve at least tried it, right?”
    She nodded and I asked, “And you didn’t like it?”
    “Not at all.” She was staring at the table, mortified, but she answered. “Some friends told me the first time is never good, but then it gets better, so I tried again about six months later and I still hated every minute of it.” She visibly shuddered. “The guy last year… even holding his hand made me want to run away.”
    “How old are you now?”
    “Thirty.”
    “Second year of college… so you haven’t had sex in ten years?”
    Now she looked at me, her gaze holding mine because she was too stubborn to do anything else. “Don’t make me seem like a freak. It’s a choice. It’s my choice.”
    “The guy last year — that’d be the one you hit with a lamp?”
    She nodded and looked at the water. “His online profile said he was asexual, so we went out a few times with the understanding we both wanted companionship without sex. But then he decided I turned him on and he wanted to see if he wasn’t asexual anymore, and he didn’t stop when I said no .”
    “Did you file charges?” I kept my voice soft, though I wanted to find the man and crush his skull.
    “I didn’t want my asexual status to come out, and I guess he didn’t want an assault charge. I have the education to be a medical doctor, I just didn’t complete all the final hospital work necessary because that wasn’t my goal. Still, I knew he needed immediate medical attention so I had to call an ambulance. We got our stories straight while we waited. He said he lost his balance and grabbed the lamp, let go of it when he thought he was okay, but then fell anyway and his head hit the lamp when he landed. I’m not sure the officers believed us, but they took our statements and let it go.”
    “And then your father took care of him later?”
    “I wasn’t aware of it at the time. I asked him about it the other night and he told me he beat the hell out of him about a month later, but concentrated on ribs and body parts so he didn’t risk killing him since the jerk had so recently had a serious concussion.”
    Whether her dad liked me or not — I liked him.
    “I didn’t mean to make you feel like a freak. I’m just trying to wrap my head around it. I want to ask how experienced the two men you were with seemed, but you’re uncomfortable enough without my asking more questions.”
    “I don’t think it was them. I’m pretty sure it’s me.” She sighed and looked down. “Sandy used to masturbate all the time. Especially when she was using, but when she was sober, too. I accidentally walked in on her a few times and it was like she felt this incredible bliss . The look on her face was as if she were having a spiritual experience. I used to be jealous of her for that.”
    “Have you ever tried to pleasure yourself?”
    “That’s personal.” She stood and walked a few steps away so I wouldn’t see her red face again, and I gave her a second before I walked to her. She hadn’t lied to me yet, and I noted that even with that question, she didn’t lie. She deflected the question, but the fact she didn’t want to answer told me she’d tried and hadn’t