ball. The white, soft, hard leather. That feels good against your hand, yo. That sting is so good, your skin turns white, and then the blood comes back. It hurts, but that hard, hard slap is good. And you want that soft white ball one more time. One more hit.
Let me get one. Let me get one. One good hit. One solid slap.
The line is moving. Iâm two girls away. But I take my eye off the clock for a second and the bell rings. Once that bell rings itâs chickens fleeing the coop. All balls drop. All the little chick-chicks go running to the lockers, but I grab Crawford and say, âHey. Just one. Set me up one.â
She says, âI gotta go.â
I pick up the white ball and throw it at her. Crawfordâs quick. Sheâs not a gym leader for nothing. She catches it and gives in.
âJust one,â she says.
âThatâs all I asked for.â So Iâm in position, right. A few feet from the net, strong side. Iâm looking up, ready to charge, haul back, and slap that ball down. She sets, but she doesnât set it right. I can get a piece of it, but itâs too low. Iâd have to tap it and Iâm not here to tap nothing.
âNo, no. Thatâs not it. Put it up. Straight up.â
Crawford knows she ainât going nowhere until she does it right. So she sets it, perfect frog arms spring, and itâs up, straight up, ninety degrees. Iâm off. Iâm charging. Iâm under it, and itâs hanging in the sweet spot, and pss-slap! Hammer to the nail. A spinning rocket to the back court line. That was good contact. Good slap. Good sting. My hand is burning. I could hit another.
19
Slamming on the Brakes
LETICIA
I CANâT MISS AP S HELTON standing in the stream of kids, and he canât miss me, headed right at him. Our eyes lock. Thereâs no turning away from me.
âMiss Moore,â he says.
âAP Shelton,â I say right back. âI was damaged in your school and I want to know what you intend to do about it.â
AP Shelton is the right person for this job. He is a serious man. He scrunches the lines in his forehead, taking in the gravity of my complaint. Heâs ready to do what assistant principals do.
âWalk with me to my office,â he says. His voice dips low, in a hush. âI want to know exactly what happened.â
Weâre walking but I canât contain myself. Something must be done now. The sooner he knows, the sooner hecan take action. I thrust my disfigured hand in his face. I want him to see what class participation got me. I say, âI hope this school has insurance, because this happened in your gymnasium during a volleyball exercise.â
AP Shelton slams on the brakes. Weâre no longer speeding to his office. He looks at my wounded hand and my severed silk-wrapped nail tip and says, âGo to class, Miss Moore.â
I canât breathe. Not even Bridgette and Bernie believe me when I say I have asthma, but I feel an attack coming on. I manage to find a breath and say, âBut my hand. My hand is damaged.â
He sighs. Sighs . That only makes my outrage climb. In fact, my outrage is halfway to heaven.
âGo to the girlsâ bathroom and run cold water over it. Iâll write you a pass.â
I stamp my feet. âI donât want a pass. I want action. I was damaged during gym. My hand and my property. Someone has to pay. Someone has to be responsible.â
He alternately nods yes and no and sings, âOh, I agree, Miss Moore.â
Is that a smirk? A smirk and a song? Oh no, he didnât just smirk at me in my hour of pain and loss of property. I tell him, âMy parents will be in your office bright and early, AP Shelton. Theyâll want to talk to you.â
Now itâs out-and-out smirking. He says, âGood, Miss Moore. Iâll want to talk to them.â
âIâm serious, AP Shelton.â
âGo to class, Miss Moore.â
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