crazy about fixing up that broken-down old wreck of a house. She loved being needed by her father. Half the time they were supposed to be working they were just yakking away. She was learning, she related glowingly at recess, to âunderstandâ her father. It had never occurred to Jess that parents were meant to be understood any more than the safe at the Millsburg First National was sitting around begging him to crack it. Parents were what they were; it wasnât up to you to try to puzzle them out. There was something weird about a grown man wanting to be friends with his own child. He ought to have friends his own age and let her have hers.
Jessâs feelings about Leslieâs father poked up like a canker sore. You keep biting it, and it gets bigger andworse instead of better. You spend a lot of time trying to keep your teeth away from it. Then sure as Christmas you forget the silly thing and chomp right down on it. Lord, that man got in his way. It even poisoned what time he did have with Leslie. Sheâd be sitting there bubbling away at recess, and it would be almost like the old times; then without warning, sheâd say, âBill thinks so and so.â Chomp. Right down on the old sore.
Finally, finally she noticed. It took her until February, and for a girl as smart as Leslie that was a long, long time.
âWhy donât you like Bill?â
âWho said I didnât?â
âJess Aarons. How stupid do you think I am?â
Pretty stupidâsometimes. But what he actually said was, âWhat makes you think I donât like him?â
âWell, you never come to the house any more. At first I thought it was something Iâd done. But itâs not that. You still talk to me at school. Lots of times I see you in the field, playing with P.T., but you donât even come near the door.â
âYouâre always busy.â He was uncomfortablyaware of how much he sounded like Brenda when he said this.
âWell, for spaghetti sauce! You could offer to help, you know.â
It was like all the lights coming back on after an electrical storm. Lord, who was the stupid one?
Still, it took him a few days to feel comfortable around Leslieâs father. Part of the problem was he didnât know what to call him. âHey,â heâd say, and both Leslie and her father would turn around. âUh, Mr. Burke?â
âI wish youâd call me Bill, Jess.â
âYeah.â He fumbled around with the name for a couple more days, but it came more easily with practice. It also helped to know some things that Bill for all his brains and books didnât know. Jess found he was really useful to him, not a nuisance to be tolerated or set out on the porch like P.T.
âYouâre amazing,â Bill would say. âWhere did you learn that, Jess?â Jess never quite knew how he knew things, so heâd shrug and let Bill and Leslie praise him to each otherâthough the work itself was praise enough.
First they ripped out the boards that covered the ancient fireplace, coming upon the rusty bricks like prospectors upon the mother lode. Next they got the old wallpaper off the living-room wallâall five garish layers of it. Sometimes as they lovingly patched and painted, they listened to Billâs records or sang, Leslie and Jess teaching Bill some of Miss Edmundsâ songs and Bill teaching them some he knew. At other times they would talk. Jess listened wonderingly as Bill explained things that were going on in the world. If Momma could hear him, sheâd swear he was another Walter Cronkite instead of âsome hippie.â All the Burkes were smart. Not smart, maybe, about fixing things or growing things, but smart in a way Jess had never known real live people to be. Like one day while they were working, Judy came down and read out loud to them, mostly poetry and some of it in Italian which, of course, Jess couldnât understand,
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