full of teddy bears, and her very own bathroom. Marissaâs bathroom is always a mess. The sink has toothpaste in it, the floorâs covered with dirty clothes, and thereâs not a glass figurine in sight. Itâs the best room in the house.
The minute we close the door, Marissa flops down on the bed, hugs a pillow, and sighs. I flop down on the other bed and say, âWhatâs the matter?â
All of a sudden Marissaâs crying. âWhy canât we go with them? We never get to go anywhere together! Itâs not like theyâre actually going to relax up at the lakeâtheyâve got two phone lines and a computer up there! And itâs not like Iâd be in the way or anything.â
So I say, âMaybe theyââ but before I can get it out, Marissa lets out this scream. I jump up. âWhat? What?â
She points to the ceiling, all bug-eyed, and whispers, âWhat is that?â
I look at the ceiling and what do I see? Nothing. âWhatâs what?â
She points again. âThat!â
I stand on her bed and take a close look at where sheâs pointing, and sure enough, there it is: the teeny-tiniest spider on earth. I look at Marissa and laugh. âHow did you even
see
it?â
Well, sheâs not laughing. Not one bit. âIs it a spider?â All of a sudden it drops and she screams and holds her face just like in an old black-and-white movie.
I reach up and slap the spider between my hands and when I open them up, thereâs barely even a smudge on my palm.
I go rinse my hands off while Marissa tries to recover from the heart attack she gave herself. When I get back she says, âThey are so creepy!â
âIt was microscopic!â
She shivers. âLittle spiders grow into big spiders.â She plops back down on the bed and sighs, and a second later sheâs forgotten all about the spider. âAll I really want is for them to be home once in a while. Iâm so tired of frozen dinners and Pop-Tarts. They always tell me Iâve got to be home for dinner, and then they donât show up until eight oâclock or something. I canât believe how lucky you are.â
I shake a finger in my ear like I need my hearing checked. I mean, here she is in her very own bedroom with her very own bathroom on one of her two beds in a gigantic house she shares with both parents, calling
me
lucky. Marissaâs never had to worry about which way to sneak into the house or how to pay for some little thing she decides she wants at the mall. Never.
So I say, âLucky? Me?â
âYeah, you. Your grandmotherâs
always
home. Any time you want to see her, there she is, waiting for you. If I want to get ahold of my mother, I have to go through about twenty âPlease holdâs before I can talk to her, and then sheâs usually in the middle of some deal and winds up telling me sheâll see me when she gets home. Thanks a lot, Mom.â
âBut Marissa, you do get to see them every day. And theyâre really nice to youâthey give you anything you want!â
Marissa makes a face. âYeah. âHereâs some money, kid, now leave me aloneââI just hate it!â
âThe money?â
âYes, the money! The stupid money.â She looks straight at me. âYouâre the only friend Iâve got. The only one. Youâre the only one whoâs never asked me for money. You wonât even take it when I try to give it to you!â She whacks a pillow with both hands. âEvery time I think someoneâs being nice to me âcause they like
me,
what do they do? They ask to borrow money. Itâs always the money.â
Well, I think about this a minute. I mean, even though Marissa has everything in the whole wide world, Iâve never actually wanted to
be
her.
We were quiet for a long time, just lying there on our beds. And Iâm in the middle of wishing I could be at the
Megan West, Kristen Flowers