there is a connection or not, I will keep you safe.â
I nod, believing him, but not comforted. âIt was crazy last night. What happened to her scalp . . . it was like a nightmare. Is that how she died?â
He rubs his forehead and averts his gaze. âThe medical examiner confirmed it was trauma to the head. Itâs too early to speculate on what caused it, but he believes the scalping was postmortem.â I can tell he doesnât want to elaborate. I rub my arms, the hair standing on end. I donât really want him to anyway.
With one last heaved sigh, he stands from the recliner, then tilts his head, studying me. âYou never called about what you found in your case file. I worried I made the wrong decision giving it to you.â
My eyes trail to his in a roundabout way. If you hunt for monsters, youâll find them. âIt was the right thing to do,â I say. âI needed to know.â He doesnât look convinced, and I donât sound certain.
He runs his hand over his jaw. âAnd it didnât jog a memory?â
Is that why he gave it to me? Was he hoping it would knock something loose in my mind? âI didnât suddenly remember that Jeanie was taken by a giant purple monster, if thatâs what you mean,â I say.
He shakes his head slowly. âWhat you said . . . it was probably nothing.â
I stare at my bare knees; faint white lines crisscross them from skinning them as a kid. My gaze shifts to Shaneâs face. âBut I repeated it over and over. It must have been important.â
âKids see monsters everywhere,â he says automatically, his tone dismissing it as nothing. His eyes stay focused on mine, though. âWith everything being dredged up in the news, it might make it harder for you to . . . you know . . . move on, keep getting over it.â
âI was the one who wasnât taken, remember? Iâm the lucky one,â I say softly. The echo of the newscaster calling me a victim ping-pongs in my head.
âI tell myself that every time I walk onto a new crime scene.â He strides toward the front door. âDonât dwell. Youâre lucky this wasnât you. Be grateful.â He glances over his shoulder. âIt never makes the fucked-up shit I see any easier to handle. Call me if you want to talk,â he says gruffly. I stand rooted to the spot as he lets himself out. The rumble of his unmarked sedan comes to life in the driveway, and his tires squeal as he reverses too quickly.
I focus on my cell to stop the room from spinning. Itâs already quarter after nine. Zoey will be here by ten. I pour myself a glass of water to settle my stomach. The doorbell chimes as I take a sip, and I hurry to the door. Maybe Zoey skipped giving herself a morning facial to get here sooner? I peer through the peephole. Rather than Zoey, Sam stands uncertainly on my doorstep.
âHey,â I say, throwing open the door, probably looking like a grinning jack-oâ-lantern, Iâm so relieved for the distraction. His eyes go round for a second, surprised. The constellation of freckles on the bridge of his nose shows bright in the pale morning. Thereâs a corner of red vest poking from under his black hoodie. âYou on your way to work?â
âYeah.â He bobs his head, eyes narrowing. âSome of us donât have rich lawyer parents.â I canât help but wince. He takes a deep, struggling breath and jams his hands into his pockets. âLook, I heard about last night and just wanted to make sure you were okay. Youâre obviously in one piece. So Iâll go now.â He steps backward off the porch.
âOh,â I say dumbly. Heâs leaving. My throat tightens. I donât want to be alone with thoughts of dead little girls. âYou want to come in?â
He stops, one foot suspended in air, eyebrows drawing together for a confused half
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