Free Before the Feast by Sasa Stanisic Page B

school. Never beautiful. Hard and dirty, even in spite of dew and hoar frost. In the evening it disappears abruptly into night, it won’t linger in twilight. Ordinary stinging nettles. Debilitated greenery. No one calls it “mine.” Well, Anna does now and then. Untamed, unused, uncleared of vermin. The next world beside this world, beside Geher’s Farm that will be inhabited again some day. After Anna. After Anna, her mother and her grandfather. Briefly, there was a father too. Before that, during the war, Polish forced laborers. People called it the Polish farm, the Poles leaned on the fence, quietly reciting poetry to each other,and before that two or three more generations of the Geher family, all farmers except for one innkeeper, and the field was always there. It has listened to them all, has taken an interest in them all as it takes an interest in Anna now: does the field think she looks sexy in those tights? With her leg on the fence, Anna is stretching the back of her thigh.
    The seasons are hesitant; if snow didn’t lie where it falls now and then, you would think it was always cold spring weather in the fallow field. All the flowers are colorless, you don’t notice them. No bumble bee fancies a flower like that. Bramble shoots like hair, the blackberries too black, too dry. Holes in the ground all over the place, with nothing and everything living in them. Stones like scars, grasses like swords. And anything that doesn’t have thorns and can’t defend itself won’t live to see the end of the day.
    A solitary oak tree stands in the middle of the field, roughly speaking. Not necessarily the prototype of solitary oak trees standing, roughly speaking, in the middle of fields. In spite of its situation and plenty of light it is pale, its leaves are sparse, its dry trunk stands at a crooked angle, stuck between the field’s teeth.
    Anna’s lower jaw quivers as she jumps up and down on the spot a few times. She reaches cautiously over the fence, tries to break off a sprig of wild rose. The wild rose defends itself vigorously. Anna tugs at it, pulls. The field fights back. Only in mankind does Nature open its eyes and look at itself. The field is mankind in thorns’ clothing, you can’t believe a word it says.
    Anna starts her timer and begins running.
    Anna has known the field a long time. We’ve known it longer.
    . . . there was so early and persistent a Frost in Fürstenfelde that all Nature froze, and the Harvest fail’d, and the People were sore anhungered, likewise was there a strange Phenomenon, in that one Day in the Depths of Winter, Apples were seen to lie in great Number under the Oak Tree . . .
    Suppose the oak tree were a sight worth seeing? Suppose tourists came to gawp? A bus full of little black-haired men in little beige jackets. They get into position in front of the fence. Someone takes a photo. He crouches down so that the others will look taller. He makes a speech. Anna doesn’t understand a word of it. Anna knows he is telling nothing but the truth.
    No tourists come. Young men come on the way back from White’s in Woldegk, early in the morning they leave a drunk to sleep it off, comatose under the oak tree, while they drive on, it’s kind of a tradition of ours.
    Anna is breathing with difficulty. She slows down.
    The field has killed. It wants to show Anna what.
    Anna doesn’t want to know.
    EVIDENCE OF THE FINDING OF TWO UNUSUAL SETS of antlers at localities near Fürstenfelde in the Uckermark, first mentioned in letters from Count Poppo von Blankenburg to Herr Bruno Bredenkamp on 17th and 19th March 1849 .
    The skull and horns of the first set of antlers were found in the sand at the bottom of the Great Lake. Dissatisfied with the catch brought in by his fishermen, the Count had been about to lend a hand himself, to show those idle fellows how to do it. His net was caught in the tines of the antlers, whereupon he pulled