who most shared Irisâs loathing of the musicale.
âIâm sorry,â Sarah said. âI couldnât resist. Pray, continue.â
Iris pursed her lips, remembering. âHe was watching me the entire time,â she said.
âMaybe he found you beautiful.â
âSarah,â Iris said frankly, âno one finds me beautiful. At least not at first glance.â
âThatâs not true!â
âYou know it is. Itâs fine. I promise.â
Sarah looked unconvinced.
âI know I am not ugly ,â Iris assured her. âBut itâs as Daisy saidââ
âOh no,â Sarah cut in forcefully, â donât quote Daisy.â
âNo,â Iris said, trying to be fair. âOccasionally she says something that makes sense. I lack color.â
Sarah held her gaze for a long moment, and then said, âThat is the most asinine thing I have ever heard.â
Iris lifted her brows. Her pale, colorless brows. âHave you ever met anyone quite so pale?â
âNo, but that signifies nothing.â
Iris let out a frustrated breath, trying to articulate her thoughts. âIâm trying to say that Iâm used to being underestimated. Overlooked.â
Sarah just stared at her. And thenââWhat are you talking about?â
Iris let out a frustrated little puff of a breath. She knew Sarah would not understand. âPeople rarely notice me. And thatâsâno, I swear it!âall right. I donât want to be the center of attention.â
âYouâre not shy,â Sarah pointed out.
âNo, but I like being able to watch people, andââshe shruggedââif Iâm honest, mock them inside my own head.â
Sarah sputtered a laugh.
âOnce people get to know me, itâs different,â Iris continued, âbut I do not stand out in a crowd. And that is why I do not understand Sir Richard Kenworthy.â
Sarah was silent for a full minute. Every now and then sheâd open her mouth as if to speak, but her lips would just hang in an oval, and then sheâd shut them again. Finally she asked, âBut you like him?â
âWere you not listening?â Iris practically exploded.
âEvery word!â Sarah insisted. âBut I do not see how any of it is relevant, at least not yet. For all we know, he did take one look at you and fall desperately in love. His behavior is certainly consistent with such a thing.â
âHeâs not in love with me,â Iris insisted.
âMaybe not yet .â Sarah let her words hang in the air for some time before asking, âIf he asked you to marry him, this very afternoon, what would you say?â
âThatâs ridiculous.â
âOf course it is, but I still want to know. What would you say?â
âI wouldnât say anything, because he would not ask.â
Sarah scowled. âWill you stop being so stubborn for one moment and indulge me?â
âNo!â Iris was ready to throw up her arms in exasperation. âI fail to see the point in attempting to determine my reply to a question that will not be asked.â
âYou would say yes,â Sarah said.
âNo, I wouldnât,â Iris protested.
âThen you would say no.â
âI did not say that, either.â
Sarah sat back and nodded slowly, a very smug look washing over her features.
âWhat now?â Iris asked.
âYou wonât even ponder the question because youâre afraid to examine your own feelings.â
Iris did not reply.
âIâm right,â Sarah said triumphantly. And then, as an aside: âI love being right.â
Iris took a deep breath, although whether this was to rein in her temper or summon her courage she did not know. âIf he asked me to marry him,â she said, each word enunciated with precision, âI would tell him that I needed time to give him an answer.â
Sarah