certainly no authority on stuff like this, but if I had to take a guess, Iâd say for some time. I think the first clue was last summer when he kept going away for weekends. He never did tell any of us why. Mom said it was secret business, but even I donât think she believed that. Mom just took his word for everything and believed everything he said. I bet he started planning this two years ago, when he had that kidney operation.â
âAre you saying our father, Colonel Logan Kelly, had a mid-life crisis?â Cala asked in awe.
âYep. Thatâs what Iâm saying,â Mike said. âListen. I have an idea. Letâs drag our mattresses down here and sleep in the living room. If we do that, we wonât have to lug firewood upstairs every day. We can all use the bathroom down here because itâs the warmest one in the house. We can eat junk food until it comes out of our ears. We wonât do dishes for the whole week until we know for sure when Mom is coming home. No beds to make, either. We can live like slobs for a whole week. What do you say?â
âI say thatâs the best idea you ever had,â Cala said.
âI made up my mind to go to Georgia Tech,â Mike said.
âGreat school. I might consider it myself. I havenât crossed off Tulane or Georgetown, though,â Cala said.
âHeâs never coming back, is he?â Tyler asked, a sob building in his throat.
âIn my opinion, no, Ty,â Mike said.
âI agree with Mike, Tyler. Heâs got eight million dollars; why does he need us? He always liked you the best if you need consolation. Mike and I are okay with that.â
âNah. You donât know the half of it. He was harder on me than you because, as he put it, I was just like him. Iâm not like him, am I?â
âNo way,â Mike said.
âAbsolutely not,â Cala said.
âLetâs go get those mattresses,â Tyler said, knuckling his eyes.
âWe need to look into student loans, aid, and all that stuff. Come August, one way or another, Iâm outta here,â Mike said.
âWhat about Mom? If Dad doesnât come back, sheâll be alone,â Cala said.
âLook, letâs all understand something right now. I love Mom, so do you. Sheâs all grown-up. Maybe this will give her some incentive to take some courses or better yet, get the degree sheâs always talked about. If she starts up the business again, she doesnât need a college degree. Itâs her decision to make, not ours. Sheâs not old. Iâm sorry to say I am not feeling too charitable where Mom is concerned. When was she there for us? If she was, why did we spill our guts to Sadie on a regular basis? Well?â
âWhat if she has a breakdown or worse? Sheâs drinking a lot,â Cala said miserably.
âThatâs by her choice. Not ours. Thatâs her weakness, not ours. Weâre tough, remember. Why didnât all that bullshit rub off on her?â
âBecause Dad kept her under his thumb. He liked her submissive. She lived for those little pats on her head and the few kind words he doled out when he was in the mood. She bought into it. Letâs not forget she was the rich one, not him. I hope he goes fucking bald. â Mikeâs words had the desired effect on his siblings, and they burst into laughter.
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âSadie, how nice of you to meet me. Thanks. Lord, itâs freezing. Are you sure you donât mind me staying with you for a few days?â
âNot at all. Iâm worried about you. Do you have any idea how ghastly you look? Iâm saying this because Iâm your friend. Friends are allowed to say things and worry about their friends. I guess I do and donât understand why youâre here. What is it you hope to accomplish? If Logan is gone, then heâs gone.â
âJust like that. If heâs gone, heâs gone. If he is gone,
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