preschooler. Left behind when the train stopped for whatever reason.
Suddenly I donât feel so hungry anymore.
I take a seat with the bag in my lap, feeling a little woozy.
I try to shine the light of the phone out the window, but it just reflects off the glass. Thereâs nothing but darkness waiting for me outside, and the idea of going through the dark tunnels by myself seems crazy.
But then, everything seems crazy now. I concentrate on the book bag. It floats away from me and bobs in the air. I look down at my hands. This power. What am I supposed to do with it? I realize now that Iâve been runningâmostly literallyâ ever since I first took out the Mogs with my telekinesis. I havenât had time to just sit and think about what all of this means. What my next steps are. Iâve had such tunnel vision about getting down to Momâs restaurant that I havenât let myself consider what happens if sheâs not there. That hasnâtreally even been a possibility.
What would I give to go back to the diner eating waffles? To walk with Mom right now? Iâd even be nice to Bennyâwould see him in a whole new light. How does life get so messed up so fast? Yesterday morning I was just a normal girl. My biggest concern was getting some new headphones. And now . . . now everythingâs different. Iâm different. Iâm powerful. And the world is falling apart.
But maybe I can help stop that. Iâm just not sure what Iâm supposed to do.
Honor the person whoâs not there with your actions .
My hands start to shake and I make the kidâs bag return to my lap, where I hug it tightly. I wonder what its owner is doing now. I hope to God that heâs safe. Maybe the kid and his parents made it to the Brooklyn safe zone John and the guy on the radio talked about.
Brooklyn . I try to put things into perspective. This whole time Iâve been counting on Mom being down at her restaurant. Hiding. Safe. But realistically, thatâs not what sheâd be doing, right? Not if she survived. Sheâd come looking for me. Sheâd try to make her way up to Harlem. She could be anywhere.
Or maybe she was taken to Brooklyn against her will. If she was hurt, they might have sent her there. Or if the army finally showed up they might have forced everyone to evacuate. She was pretty close to the BrooklynBridge at work. Maybe sheâs there now, waiting for me.
Maybe Brooklyn is actually my best shot at finding my mom.
And John and Sam can help me get there.
I realize that Iâve started rocking in the seat, and at that moment the last place I want to be is all by myself in an abandoned subway car, alone with my thoughts. Iâve got to get moving again. If the sunâs not up yetâif itâs still thereâit will be soon. A new dayâs starting; my mom will be wondering where I am.
I stand up, putting the little blue book bag on the bench carefully. Then I take a deep breath, gather up the rest of the stuff Iâve found and return to the car where my new weirdo friends are sleeping.
When I get back I try to sit still and wait for the boys to wake up on their own. I check the battery power on some of the cell phones Iâve collected, leaving a few fully charged ones on to try to make the inside of the train car feel less depressing. After a minute or two, though, I start to worry that theyâre both going to sleep all morning, and Iâm too fired up to get going again to wait for that. So I cough a few times and chuck the fake Prada purse onto the seat over by Johnâs head.
He bolts straight up.
âYouâre alive,â I say. I donât have to fake my smile.
John seems groggy, but that doesnât keep him from going pretty much straight into another recruitmentspeech after giving me some shit for having a duffel bag full of money, as if Iâm some kind of common thug. Like he even knows me. I donât know where he
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