children at any hour, and she really felt Mrs Field should have shown more consideration. She hadnât been given the opportunity to say anything. She was given a monthâs money and told very politely that Mrs Field was taking the child away and she could leave in the morning. She was thinking back on the scene, wishing she had come out of it better. The little girl sat mutely in the pram, waiting to be lifted out.
âWhat a beautiful child,â a womanâs voice said.
The nanny looked round, startled. She hadnât even noticed that someone had sat down beside her. Normally she enjoyed talking to people and it pleased her when Lucy was admired. The woman was young and spoke with a foreign accent. She was well-dressed and she smiled at her.
âSo pretty,â she repeated. âDo you look after her?â
âYes,â the nanny said. Resentment was boiling up in her. To be turned out of the house ⦠In twenty years no other mother had ever dared.
âSheâs a credit to you. How old is she?â
âThree,â she said. âIâve been with her since she was born. Here, come to Nanny dear; you can have a little run but donât go near the water.â She lifted the child out and brushed her pink coat down. âPlay just here, dear, where I can see you. Show Teddy to the lady.â
Madeleine Labouchère held the toy for a moment. She smiled encouragingly at the little girl, who smiled back. She was rather a small child for her age, pale and slight by comparison with the fat, spoiled children of the Lebanese rich. She seemed to be subdued.
âSheâs a dear little thing,â the nanny said and her eyes pricked. She was going to miss Lucy. And the splendid house, the easy life with servants to wait on her. She was going to miss it all. She brought a handkerchief out and blew her nose.
âI donât know how sheâll manage without me. Iâve been the only mother sheâs ever known, poor little mite.â
âOh dear,â Madeleine said. âAre you leaving then?â
âYes.â The nanny sniffed and blew her nose again. She wanted sympathy. âIâve been given notice. Just like that! The motherâs decided to look after her herself! Huh â I wonder how long thatâll last.â
The hands clasped round Madeleineâs bag were gripping tight.
âHow awful for you,â she said. âWhen are you leaving?â
âTomorrow,â the nanny said. âI told her this morning, Iâm not going to be treated like that after all Iâve done for that child. Iâm going first thing tomorrow, I said. She didnât like that, I can tell you!â It was so easy to turn the truth around; she was almost convincing herself that this was how it had happened. âShe wouldnât have dared do it if Mr Field had been there! He trusted me completely.â
For one panic-ridden moment Madeleine had thought that Logan had suddenly come back too. She opened her hands and there were wet sweat marks on the leather purse.
âI expect sheâll get another nanny,â she said. âBut itâs very hard on you.â
âOh dear no.â The sarcasm was heavy. âSays sheâs taking Lucy to Ireland! That dreadful place, I ask you â going to look after her all by herself. I hate the Irish. We ought to let them get on and murder each other, thatâs what I say. She âs Irish. Now Lucy, donât wipe your hands on your coat!â
Madeleine got up. The little girl stared at her; she had large blue eyes, with a hesitant look. Ireland. Unconsciously she used Petersâs rare expletive. Jesus Christ on wheels. Ireland. The mother was in London, the nurse was leaving. The child was going to Ireland. The whole operation was falling apart.
âI must be going,â she said. There was a gun in her handbag. It had come in Resnaisâs brandy flask, wrapped in plastic. For