lacrosse team, a mix of boys and girls who played the game (club in the fall, school team in the spring) and hung out together all year round. We went to each otherâs houses for parties, swimming, goofing off on trampolines, that kind of stuff. Since this was my friend group, naturally we ate lunch together, or at least thatâs what we did until I got the boot, and no, I donât mean the kind you walk in.
I wonât bother naming all the names, because they donât matter anymore. All except for two: Justin DâAbbraccio and Laura Abel. Justin is the clich é cute boy in schoolâstar lacrosse player, drummer in the jazz band, alpine ski racer, floppy hair and dreamy green eyes. Laura Abel is the girl at the center of it all. She is an expert dresser, the gorgeous, all-American-blonde type, with a nose for sniffing out gossip the same way Daisy can locate a morsel of dropped food. She is the queen of conflict, starting fights or resolving them whenever she wants, and has a crucial opinion when it comes to picking sides. Basically, she is the person other kids turn to when they arenât sure how to think or feel.
Itâs Laura who gets invited to all the âcoolâ parties, Laura who wins the class elections, Laura who gets the most attention from the boys. Her social media posts are mandatory reads, always with an avalanche of comments decorated with colorful emojis. To get a comment back feels like being anointed with special powers, to be one of the chosen, even if your moment in the spotlight was as fleeting as a shooting star.
Itâs not as if people donât have a voice of their own, or they canât make something happen without Lauraâs involvement.
They just donât want to.
Everything between Laura and me turned sour in June of last year, near the end of seventh grade. By that point, the police had put out word they were looking for Teresa Mitchell in connection to my dadâs disappearance, so everyone knew or at least suspected that heâd had an affair. They also knew (because Connor had said something to his friends and word travels fast in Seabury) that my mom and Mr. Fitch were going out to dinner together, meaning I had more than enough strikes to make me a social outcast. But to my ex-friendsâ credit, they didnât seem to care about my fatherâs secrets or my mom and a teacher at school who might or might not be becoming an item.
But Laura cared a whole heck of a lot that Justin DâAbbraccio was being extra nice to me on account of everything Iâd gone through that year. You see, Laura and Justin were dating. Dating in middle schoolmeant eating lunch together, texting each other constantly, and sending pictures and messages over whatever social media thingy was in fashion at the moment. It was basically a meaningless label that had tons of meaning, if that makes any sense.
Now imagine thisâJustin started texting me and liking my posts. He also started hanging out by my locker, waiting for me to show up. Itâs not like we were dating or anything. But his parents had split up the year before while Lauraâs were still married, so maybe he felt compassion for me. Maybe he understood I was suffering, and, God forbid, wanted to ease my pain a little.
Laura didnât care one tiny bit about Justinâs motives. She cared about competition and nothing more. I wasnât as pretty or as well dressed as Laura Abel, but I was a heck of a lot better lacrosse player. Now, if I had Justin on my arm, it was easy to see how damaging that could have been to her social status. Which was why Laura went on the offensive. She started a campaign against me, backbiting, spreading rumors (âYou wonât believe what Maggie Garrity said about you!â) and making sure people knew that if they hung out with me, they werenât welcome in Lauraâs circle anymore.
Well, it didnât take long for bad to go to worse. One