he sets the Mac Pro to playing itself at cribbage, with a five-second delay before each Player 1 move. He also sets it so that Player 2 will beat Player 1 every time. That should hold any lookie-loos for an hour or so. Then he powers up his own Mac, returns to Amazon, and buys two wigs: a blond one with short hair and a black one with long hair. In other circumstances he would have these sent to a storefront mail drop, but on this job thereâs no point, not when David Lockridge will be IDâd as the shooter before the sun goes down on the day it happens.
With the wigs taken care of, he puts one of the blank Staples notebooks beside his personal lappie and begins a virtual tour of houses and apartments for rent. He finds a number of possibles, but any boots-on-the-ground investigation will have to wait until he gets his goods from Amazon.
Itâs only two oâclock when he finishes his virtual house-hunting, too early to call it a day. Itâs time to actually start writing. Heâs thought about this quite a lot. At first he assumed he would use his own machine for that. Using the Pro might mean his employerâand possibly his âliterary agentââcould be reading over his shoulder, which makes him think of the telescreens in 1984. Would Nick and Giorgio be suspicious if they looked in and didnât see any copy? Billy thinks they would be. They wouldnât say anything, but it might give them the idea that Billy knows more about snooping and hacking than he wants them to know.
And thereâs another reason to write on the Pro, even though it may be bugged. Itâs a challenge. Can he really write a fictionalized dumb self version of his own life story? Risky, but he thinks maybe he can. Faulkner wrote dumb in The Sound and the Fury . Flowers for Algernon , by Daniel Keyes, is another example. There are probably more.
Billy quits the automated cribbage game and opens a blank Word document. He titles it The Story of Benjy Compson âa nod to Faulkner heâs sure neither Nick nor Giorgio will tip to. He sits for several seconds, drumming his fingers on his chest and looking at the blank screen.
This is a crazy risk, he thinks.
This is the last job, he thinks, and types the sentence heâs been holding in his mind for just this occasion.
The man my ma lived with came home with a broke arm.
He looks at this for almost a minute, then types again.
I donât even remember his name. But he was plenty mad. I guess he must have went to the hospital first because it was in a cast. My sister
Billy shakes his head and fixes it so itâs better. He thinks so, anyway.
The man my ma lived with came home with a broke arm. I guess he must have went to the hospital first because it was in a cast. My sister was trying to bake cookies and she burnt them. I guess she forgot to keep track of the time. When that man came home he was plenty mad. He killed my sister and I donât even remember his name.
He looks at what heâs written and thinks he can do this. More, he wants to do this. Before starting to write, he would have said Yes I remember what happened, but only a little . Only now thereâs more. Even that short paragraph has unlocked a door and opened a window. He remembers the smell of burned sugar, and seeing smoke seep out of the oven, and the chip on the side of the stove, and flowers in a teacup on the table, and some kid outside chanting âOne pâtater two pâtater three pâtater four .â He remembers the heavy clod-clod-clod of that manâs boots coming up the steps. That man, that boyfriend. And now he even remembers the name. It was Bob Raines. He remembers thinking when he heard that man use his fists on Ma, Bob is raining. Bob is raining on Ma . He remembers her smiling after and saying He didnât mean it . And It was my fault .
Billy writes for an hour and a half, wanting to bolt ahead but holding himself back. If Nick or Giorgio