say anything. Fuck! I turn her and hold her face so I can see her eyes. “I’m here, I’m all in. It happened fuckin fast for me too. I’m here when you’re ready, babe. I’m willing to wait until you’re all in, Penny.” Fuck. I’m ready to tell her I love her and haven’t ever thought about saying those words to a woman before. I need my fuckin head examined.
She closes her eyes and a tear falls. Her silence is killing me. That tear could mean too much. She opens her eyes and smiles. My whole body relaxes. It’s my smile; she doesn’t give it to anyone else. “You make me matter. I don’t want to give that up. I’m afraid you’ll get sick of my darn crying and leave. I’m sorry I make you feel bad, but no one has ever done things just to make me happy. It’s hard to think when it hits me. Thank you for the corsets. I’ll wear one tonight for you.” She finishes whispering and my mouth is on hers.
She’s still in and I’m fuckin relieved, then I’m hard. She’s wearing a corset for me. I hope to hell that means I’m seeing it later. I pull away before I can’t. “You need to eat and get ready or I’m not letting you go so I can see that thing sooner rather than later.” She slides off my lap, making me laugh. Maybe she’s not ready for everything, but she’s still in. Thank fuck!
I get our dinner on plates and sit. She has silverware, napkins, water and a beer for me already set. “What are you doing tonight?” she asks.
“Playing poker with the Brothers. That’s what they do on girls’ night. It keeps them busy so they’re not watching the feeds all night.” She giggles, making me smile.
We clean up and she goes to dress while I check the feeds. CK IT has quite a few cars tagged, but it’s fairly normal for a Friday night. I check the country bar and see two yellow tags, but Security is there watching. I know HS will be there, so I check surveillance and see little Ben is on with Sticks until eleven. I shut it down, feeling good about this, and go find the woman who is making me crazy.
Her hair is in waves going down her back and I want her to put it up. Patches says I can’t tell her what to wear or say anything about her makeup and shit, so I clench my jaw, making sure that doesn’t come out of my mouth. She bends closer to the mirror and I look from her ass to her heels, pissed that anyone else will see that tonight. I watch her put stuff on her face and relax. She’s beautiful and mine. She’s still in with me and no one else has that chance. Her eyes find mine and she smiles. I smile and hold the top of the door frame so I keep standing because my knees want to buckle. I am so fuckin gone. Tiny might as well buy me a whole box of tampons.
“I’m almost ready,” she says softly. I nod and take a breath, watching her put shit on her lips. I picture them shiny like that on my dick. I take another breath and turn around so I’m not torturing myself. I just finished telling her we can slow down when I want to pound balls deep into her. I go to the living room and drop for push-ups. I’m never going to make slow.
As I’m standing up, she walks in. “Ready?” She looks at me from my feet to my eyes and I’m hard. That’s not an innocent look in her eyes. She nods and I take a step toward her then hear the beep. Fuck! I put my hand out for her. She takes it and I walk her out.
Tess screeches from the front seats when I open the door. “You look good together, Penny!”
I smile and kiss her head. “You’re beautiful, babe, have fun.” I close the door on another screech, smiling. It must take every bit of energy for Patches and Rich to keep up with Tess.
I turn and remember my bike is still up at the shop. I call and get a Prospect to give me a ride to my house for my other bike, then decide to drive the truck just in case Penny has too much to drink. When I get to the Club I have to wait for the next hand.
“Where were you?” Rich asks.
“I went to get my
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