to know that he would be with her when
she left tomorrow morning, regardless of what it cost him in terms of pain
or exhaustion.
A t dawn the next morning Anne stirred on the sofa she had been using as a
bed since she had no longer felt it necessary to keep a watch over her
patient. A sense of presence in the room made her open her eyes, and she
stared in astonishment at Julian who was fully dressed and prowling
around the kitchen, making coffee.
"Good grief," she complained, yawning hugely as she pushed back the
blankets. "You're up early."
He threw her a quick glance before going back to the coffee
preparations. "From what you've told me we have a long trip ahead of us
and a lot to do after we arrive at the other end."
"Well, yes, but I didn't say we had to rise at the crack of dawn."
"When I'm not coming out of a bout of that damn fever, I usually get up
at dawn," he said, shrugging. "Sometimes earlier."
"Part of the secret-agent ethic?" she grumbled, stumbling to her feet.
Her long flannel nightgown floated around her ankles. "Early to bed, early
to rise, helps a guy catch villainous spies?"
"That's not too bad, considering just how early it is. Are you always that
fast at this hour?"
"No. I was briefly inspired." Anne patted another yawn, suddenly aware
of how disheveled she probably looked. Her hair was a tousled, russet mop
and the flannel gown had been chosen for warmth, not seductiveness. Not
that she wanted to seduce Julian, she reminded herself grimly. "Actually,
you're looking fairly perky yourself, this morning. You must feel better."
He considered that. "I do, as a matter of fact. Better than I have in a
long time." The information seemed to surprise him. He frowned and
flipped on the coffeepot switch.
He did look good this morning, Anne thought as she hurried down the
hall toward the bathroom. He was wearing a gray sweater, a pair of jeans
and boots. His dark hair was clean from the shower and had been
ruthlessly combed into place. Julian moved this morning with something
approaching his former lithe grace, even though the limp was still
hampering him. There was a sense of regained strength in the leanness of
his body.
Anne was seriously asking herself whether or not she could take any
credit for his sudden progress when she realized the probable truth. Julian
was looking better and feeling better this morning not because of her
careful nursing but because for the first time in months he was about to
go back to work. He had a task ahead of him. A self-imposed task, to be
sure, but a real one.
The realization was depressing. She should be glad that he might finally
be showing some signs of enthusiasm, she told herself. After all,
apparently he had been holed up here for the past several months, licking
his wounds. His mental outlook must have been very dark indeed during
that period. Perhaps a challenge was exactly what was needed right now
to help complete his recovery.
But deep inside, Anne knew the notion wasn't nearly as heartwarming
as it should have been. The reality of the matter was that she had been
nourishing a secret hope that she would be the cause of his recovery. She
had wanted him to need her. When was she going to stop building up her
hopes, Anne wondered sadly.
Julian was accompanying her to the West Coast for a variety of reasons,
but none of those reasons included love. He probably felt an obligation to
protect Michael's sister, since he hadn't been able to talk her out of the
scheme. And he might be finding some inner enthusiasm for the
unexpected challenge. But he wasn't going with her because he had finally
realized he was hopelessly in love with her.
Anne grimaced at her own crazy emotionalism and drowned her
discontent under the pulse of the shower spray.
"There are a few ground rules we'd better get straight before we get on
that jet," Julian announced a couple of hours later, as he locked up the
cabin and held out his hand