birthday parties he wasnât invited to and was part of playground games he would always be left out of.
But I couldnât ignore the fact that Julia was his friend and protector. He went on hanging around her friends and their conversations. She walked him around the playground, the two of them nodding, talking, and, I guessed, sharing secrets. At the end of some lunch breaks, Iâd see them coming out of the school library, along with the other kids who liked books or chess.
âHi, Julia,â Iâd say whenever we passed each other on the way to class lines, or were waiting near each other in the cafeteria to buy snacks. It was always an effort to say anything else to her, and I found myself hoping she would say something more in return.
But sheâd always reply, âHi, Kieran,â and give me a look I read as,
Iâve seen how you and your friends treat Bon. Youâre still not looking out for him, are you?
And at the end of some school days, Iâd often see Julia and Bon stopped somewhere short of the school gates, sitting on the grass near the school office. If they werenât talking, theyâd simply be sitting and watching everyone else walk by. Now that Julia often rode her bike to school, I didnât see her mom at the school gate anymore. So Bon and Julia taking their time was as though they were putting off their journeys home, to a trailer park and a hotel room.
âWe should wait for Bon,â Gina would sometimes say at the gate. âHe can walk with us some of the way home.â
I would shake my head. I didnât want Bon to get the idea that he was welcome to walk to or from school with us anytime he liked. Having him with us for some of the time already was more than enough. So I chose different ways to get home, along the other streets that would lead us to our own. I tried to ignore Ginaâs complaints about the extra hill to walk up and the scarier dogs that lived at several houses along the way. Bon could find his own way to his own home.
âI can see Bon over there,â Gina said.
âHeâs with his friend Julia,â I told her. âHeâll be a while yet. Come on, letâs go.â
âBut I want him to walk with us,â she insisted.
âNo, Gina. Come
on
,â I urged, watching as Julia took off on her purple bike.
Gina sighed, disappointed. âAll right.â
I hurried her along a bit so that Bon wouldnât spot us and want to catch up. I led Gina the longer way, down the hilly sidewalks to the Sheridan Street shops.
âI want a snack,â Gina announced as we came to the supermarket. âChips or gummy worms? I canât decide.â
âOnly if you share,â I told her. âAnd itâs not one of Momâs workdays, so youâll have to spend your own money.â
Gina dropped her school backpack on the sidewalk and triumphantly pulled out a coin purse. âIâve got spending money.â She grinned.
âAisle six,â I reminded her as we walked inside.
âChips or gummy worms?â she repeated to herself as she disappeared into the aisle. âI still canât decide.â
For Gina, these decisions were never quick, so I had time to wander around a little. I stopped to look at the magazine racks.
Then I heard the voices.
âYou are not getting your photo taken,â said a hushed, annoyed voice that I recognized.
âI
am.
â This time it was Juliaâs voice, not quite as hushed. âI havenât had a school photo for two years. You canât stop me.â
They were in the aisle right next to where I stood, and I peered along the gaps in the shelves until I could catch a glimpse of them. I couldnât see their faces, but I could see the top Julia had worn to school that day, and I recognized the silver bangle on one wrist.
Her mom wore jeans and a black jacket. âIâll keep you at home,â she said in an urgent