Free Infinite Love by C. J. Fallowfield

something when you wake up.’
     

New York
    ‘Lex, will you help me do up this Basque?’ I asked as I stood in one of Sophia’s guest suites.
    ‘That’s not your wedding one,’ she frowned.
    ‘No, I don’t want to wear it until the day, this is just so I can try on the dresses.’
    ‘Ok,’ she nodded and came and fastened the hooks for me as I held my hair up. ‘So, nervous?’
    ‘Trying on beautiful dresses? No way,’ I laughed.
    ‘I didn’t mean about trying them on, I meant that trying them on means the actual day is getting closer. You’re really not worrying about it?’
    ‘Why would I? Gabe’s in control of the day and he knows what I love so I have no worries over that and I’m crazily in love with him, stupid can’t live without him, in love.’
    ‘Really? I’d never have guessed,’ she scoffed and I laughed.
    ‘I know I do a pretty crap job of hiding it, don’t I? I miss him already.’
    ‘Jesus, like a love sick puppy.’
    ‘I am,’ I nodded. ‘I’m one smitten kitten and I miss him. New York’s not the same without him with me,’ I sighed. Gabe and Robert had slept over at his last night, for some father-son pre-wedding private bonding time, and so they wouldn’t be around for the dresses arriving this morning. Sofia was putting up Mum and Gerry and Lexi and I. Doug, Georgie and Justin had decided to stay in a hotel instead, in case they wanted to come and go at all hours.
    ‘I still can’t believe we’re here, in bloody New York,’ Lexi uttered. ‘And this place is HUGE. How much money does Sofia have?’
    ‘I haven’t asked Lex, but she’s obviously very well off. Sorry it’s all wedding stuff today, but we’ll go out and have fun tonight.’ We’d only arrived last night and had eaten a small meal and all gone to bed early. ‘Too right we will, if I have to endure another whole bloody day of dresses and Sofia and Mrs. P crying their eyes out again.’
    ‘Well you’ve emotionally stunted, I can’t believe you didn’t even cry once back home.’
    ‘It’s a bloody dress that’s all,’ she replied with a roll of her eyes.
    ‘I’ll make you cry on the day if I have to slap you Clarke, best friends and bridesmaids cry. Don’t forget we’re trying dresses for you too.’
    ‘Christ, this is the stuff nightmares are made of,’ she moaned.
    ‘O stop your whinging, you get to hook up with Sam tonight in the 40/40 club so it can’t all be bad.’
    ‘There is that.’ She broke into a big grin and I laughed. ‘I haven’t seen him for over a month, I can’t wait.’
    ‘For a tiny second I was secretly hoping Doug might break up with Sarah and throw himself at you.’
    ‘You’re like a dog with a bloody bone. He’s happy with her.’
    ‘Is he? I see how he still looks at you,’ I nodded. Sarah couldn’t get the time off work on such short notice. She worked in a beauticians, where Doug went for his waxes and she’d asked him out, the five of us hung out together quite a bit, Sam too if he came to stay. ‘I think he’d break it off with her if he knew you wanted him back.’
    ‘I’m not in that place still, Mia.’
    ‘I’m worried if you don’t get Douged again soon, you’ll forget that he’s your Neo,’ I whined with a pout.
    ‘I won’t forget,’ she smiled. ‘I’m just not ready. I don’t know, maybe if he was getting married to Sarah it might prod me into action. I’d be like Jackson from Grey’s Anatomy, just as they are about to wed I could declare my love for Doug and he’d run out of the church with me.’
    ‘Or you could just tell him how you really feel right now, without all the shame and expense of ruining someone’s big day.’
    ‘Where’s the fun in that?’ She teased as she did the last hook up for me.
    ‘It’s not supposed to be fun,’ I sighed as I looked around at her.
    ‘Don’t start. Just because you’ve reached some kind of fat Buddha enlightenment about the whole marriage and babies shit doesn’t mean