Free Vision of Destiny (Infinity Book 2) by S. Moose Page A

my face for the sake of Jamie.
    I pull the necklace out from my shirt and hold the ring in between my fingers. Closing my eyes, I talk to Karly, hoping she can hear me.
    I miss you and think about you every day. I hope you know I don’t want this. I don’t want to be married to Jamie, but I’m doing this for Emma. I’m sorry, so sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me one day. I love you, Angel. Forever.
    “Ready, Hayes?”
    I turn and look at Larry. He’s walking towards me with an unreadable expression. Everyone knows I’m making the biggest mistake, but only Jamie and I know the real reason why. Maybe one day we can tell my family, maybe. For now, it’s something I need to bury deep inside until Jamie’s ready.
    I turn away and think about Karly. She’s the best part of me. She took a chance on me and wiped my soul clean. All I wanted was to be the man she deserved to have. Being here without her has been torture. It was as though the mouth of hell was opening and I was stepping inside for a life of pain and suffering. This moment here, standing in my room and preparing for my wedding, stood for the end of what I wanted. 
    “Ready as I’ll ever be.”
    “All right, let’s go do this again.”
    We leave the bedroom and head downstairs. I hear Lexi and my mom in the other room with Emma and Jamie. I can hear the excitement in Jamie’s voice and the rest of them agreeing. The disdain in their voices is clear, but unclear to Jamie. She thinks people are happy with us getting back together. I don’t have the heart to tell her the truth.
    Larry and I stand at the top of the beach. He doesn’t say much. There’s not much to say. Staring at our guests, I see that some look confused and some are trying to be polite, while I’m here, not feeling anything but pain.
    “All right, man. I’ll see you up there.”
    I nod and watch him walk away. I kick the sand around my feet and wait for my mom to meet me.
    “Nicholas?”
    I kiss my mom’s cheek and take her arm in mine. “You look beautiful, Mom.”
    “Thank you, sweetie. So how are you feeling?”
    Will it be bad to tell her the truth? “I’m okay. Thank you for everything.”
    She pats my hand and lets out a sigh. “I love you, Nicholas. You’re my son and I’ll always stand by and support you. I hope you know that.”
    I help her sit down and kiss her cheek again. “Thank you, Mom.”
    Heading over to Larry and the priest, I don’t feel the usual emotions people feel on their wedding day. My heart isn’t beating fast. I’m calm, not nervous. Instead of feeling happy, I have an “I don’t give a shit” attitude. I put a smile on my face to show the world that I’m happy, when inside, all I want is to run away from here and go back to my Angel.
    I turn around and look at our family and friends. The music softly starts and Emma’s walking down the aisle, throwing rose petals on the sand. She’s miserable. I don’t blame her. She makes her way to me and I scoop her into my arms.
    “You look beautiful, Princess.”
    “Thanks, Daddy.” She kisses my cheek and rests her head on my shoulder.
    Lexi soon follows and I have to look away. I hate seeing the look of disappointment in my sister’s eyes. She hates this just as much as I do. She stands in front of me and mouths, “Are you sure you want this?” I nod and she understands when I look away.
    The music changes as my dad and Jamie slowly walk down the aisle. I close my eyes and envision Karly dressed in a gorgeous white dress walking to me, not Jamie. In a perfect world, Karly’s holding on to my dad’s arm with a smile on her face. She’s looking at just me as our eyes connect and our hearts beat. I’ll keep my own version of my wedding to myself.
    Dad hands Jamie to me and shakes my hand. He doesn’t say anything when he sits down next to my mom. The priest tells everyone to sit down and begins his speech about love and finding your other half. He goes on to say that love is