choose
adoption, if this is the right choice, I need peace in this decision. I need a sign.”
I talked to God in my bedroom for about an hour until I fell asleep. And you know
what? The next morning in the car on my way to school, adoption commercials started
coming on the radio. When I got to class and started on vocabulary, I saw the words
“adoption” and “birth parents.”
I was like, well, thank you. There’s my sign. That was all I needed. And that was
the moment on I made peace with my decision. I thought, “That’s it. I’m gonna do this,
and I don’t care who the hell tries to get in my way.”
Tyler:
I know it was hard for Cate as the mother. She’s always had a strong maternal instinct.
Even her dad has told me about how she always wanted to help animals and rescue baby
birds. She was always very nurturing and she always dreamed of being a mom. But she
set her own wants aside to provide this child with the best possible life. Once she
told me, “I remember crying and thinking about being a mom and going through all the
struggles. And then I would stop crying and feel peace when I thought about Carly
being adopted. And that’s how I knew that was what I wanted to do.”
Less than one percent of women choose adoption for their babies. Ninety-nine percent
of women who parent choose to get pregnant or have an abortion. That’s why it’s so
ironic and amazing that Catelynn chose adoption, because for someone who had dreamed
about parenthood for so long and had such a strong maternal instinct, it was the ultimate
sacrifice. She’s in that one percent of women who made that decision.
Catelynn:
My mom was dead set against adoption. People find that surprising sometimes, because
she’d been willing to take me in for an abortion. I think she was able to think about
abortion because it still feels so unreal early on in the pregnancy. But in her generation,
adoption was a bad and scary thing. Nobody really knew about it. There was adoption
within our family, where people would adopt their kids out to other relatives, but
I wasn’t going to do that. In her mind I was going to give birth to her granddaughter
and then send her away forever.
Tyler:
My dad was totally against the adoption, too. And as we’ll tell you, they combined
forces to fight us all the way through. Not everyone approved. And we have had people
tell us we took the easy way out. But whoever thinks placing your child for adoption
is the easy way out...that’s just ignorant. If anything, having the child would have
been the easy way out. That’s how it was done in our families, that’s what they wanted,
and that’s what we knew. Or we could have had the abortion, that would have been the
easy way out. For us, adoption was the highest expression of love we could offer.
Tyler:
It’s weird to look back on all of the crazy shit we did, to think about how this one
thing could completely change us and our maturity and morality.
Catelynn:
Shoot, we acted crazy up until the day we found out. And then there was a child growing
inside of me, and that just changed everything.
Closing Thoughts
No teenagers should have to make the difficult decision we had to make. No adult should,
either. But hey, teens, we’re talking to you in particular: Be smart! You can get
condoms. There’s no reason to risk putting yourselves in the position we ended up
in. The only positive pregnancy test you ever want to see is one you’re actively hoping
and planning for. Be safe, use protection, or wait to have sex until you’re ready
to do it responsibly. And if you’re not ready for sex at all? Don’t have it! You are
in control of that decision. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise, and don’t ever
let anyone convince you that it’s not worth it to take precautions against pregnancy.
Parents, talk to your kids! We know you might not like to think of your kids having