middle of our history class. None of the other children thought that unusual, but I perceived it as some sign. At home, I spoke of her constantly, and one day my mother gave me a long look.
âSister Mary Anita this, Sister Mary Anita that. You sure talk about Sister Mary Anita a lot. Whatâs her full name anyway?â
I turned aside but muttered, âSister Mary Anita Buckendorf.â I stole a look back at my mother, but she raised her eyebrows and glanced at my father. He gave no sign that he found the name of significance, but continued to paste stamps into his stamp album. He had inherited these polished leather albums and was adding slowly to some arcane arrangement which had originally been assembled by Uncle Octave, the one who had died tragically, for love. When attending to his albums, my fatherâs absorption was so complete that he was unreachable. Mooshum was sitting at the table playing rummy with Joseph. He caught the name though, and said, âBuckendorf!â He tried to keep on playing, but Joseph jogged his arm to make him quit. My mother went outside to hang the wet laundry on the line, in spite of the storm brewing. Iâd caught the same note in Mooshumâs voice as my brother had, and checked again on my father, who was examining through a magnifying glass some stamp he held up with a tweezers. Our father drew a rapt breath and smiled as though the frail scrap of paper held a mystic secret. I moved to the end of the table and asked, âWhat about the name?â
âWhat name?â Mooshum knew that he had us hooked.
âYou know, my teacher, Sister Mary Anita Buckendorf.â
âOh yai! The Buckendorfs!â His mouth twisted as he said it.
âSheâs a nun!â
Mooshum packed his jaw and nodded at his spittoon. Joseph made a retching noise but went outside carrying the snoose canâa red Sanborn coffee can with the man in a yellow robe walking across it sipping coffee. We always emptied the can onto the roots of Mamaâs struggling blue Colorado spruceâeventually, it surrendered to the killing juice, turned black, and dried up.
âYou know why sheâs a nun, after all, my girl,â said Mooshum, while Joseph was outside. âNot too many people have the privilege of seeing right before their eyes there is no justice here on eart.â He said âeart,â he hardly ever used a th .
Mooshum put his hands down before him and pushed the airtwice. He pushed the air like he was stuffing it into a box. âShe saw it. No justice.â
âYeah?â
Joseph came back in and we waited, but Mooshum suddenly turned his back on us and rummaged in his shirt pocket. We could not see what he was doing. He turned back to us and spat into the empty coffee can with such a loud ping that my father glanced up, but his eyes didnât even focus on us before the stamps reclaimed his attention. Mooshum shifted the wad a little and kept squinting at us. Measuring us. We sat still and stared at him, trying to contain ourselves. The television had succumbed to some disturbance in the atmosphere and no delicate adjustment of its long wire antennae had cleared the snow from the picture. We were very bored, but there was moreâperhaps I could add to my facts about Sister Mary Anita. It seemed that Mooshum had knowledge of something new about her, or her family at least, and I suspected that it might be something that no one else would tell me.
Mooshum straightened with a creaky groan and rocked himself forward. He found his balance, launched himself. We followed as he walked out the screen door, down the wooden steps, onto the tortured lawn. He lowered himself into the peeling yellow kitchen chair that he brought out in spring and took back inside after frost. It was late September, but the day was very warm. He liked to sit outside on the dead grass of the yard and inspect people as they walked the road to the agency offices. We grabbed