Free TTYL by Lauren Myracle

thought it was sweet, the fact that he wanted my opinion. then today i saw him playing the same game with tonnie, and it made me feel sick.
zoegirl:
yuck, angela. why don’t u just break up with him?
SnowAngel:
i should. i totally shld.
zoegirl:
so why don’t u?
SnowAngel:
i dunno. *sighs*
SnowAngel:
it’s complicated.
zoegirl:
???
SnowAngel:
this’ll sound weird, but it’s like i can’t just walk away from him cuz then i’d be this big loser. i mean, he’s so amazingly smart and funny and adorable, so when i’m around him, i try really hard to be smart and funny and adorable too.
SnowAngel:
it’s like i have to earn his respect, u know?
SnowAngel:
i just… i want to mean more to him than i do.
zoegirl:
oh, angela
SnowAngel:
i know
zoegirl:
ur not gonna wait around for him all night, r u? please don’t sit at yr house waiting for him.
SnowAngel:
don’t worry. mom’s taking me and chrissy to bennigan’s cuz dad has a late meeting. maybe, if he finally does call, i’ll pretend *i* forgot.
zoegirl:
that’s the spirit.
SnowAngel:
can we talk about something else? something cheerful?
zoegirl:
sure. like what?
SnowAngel:
our road trip!!! *pumps fist in air and whoops like a redneck*
zoegirl:
oh man. my mom is never going to go for it.
SnowAngel:
but did madigan tell u her new idea, about cumberland island? it’s way closer than busch gardens, and once we got there we could take a ferry to the island itself and camp out. it wld just be us and the park rangers, so our parents wouldn’t have to worry about us partying or anything.
zoegirl:
yeah, we talked about it in homeroom. jana whitaker was listening in, and she said beach camping is really fun.
SnowAngel:
*jana* said that?
zoegirl:
uh huh. the whole time we were talking, jana was like, “road trip. yeah. that’s cool.” maddie acted as smooth as ever, but i could tell she was pleased.
SnowAngel:
GOD, that makes me sick.
zoegirl:
why?
SnowAngel:
cuz it’s soooo not maddie—or at least it used to not be. these days i’m not so sure.
zoegirl:
what do you mean?
SnowAngel:
i don’t even wanna get into it, cuz it’s like the more we talk about jana the more power she gets.
SnowAngel:
but today in math, maddie was chatting with eric craver, and i heard her say that once she got her license, she was gonna “cruise the back roads and blast some totally cream music.”
zoegirl:
blast some totally cream music???
SnowAngel:
it’s her new jana-ism. it’s just so wrong how she’s gone from hating her to, like, worshipping her.
zoegirl:
“worshipping” may be a little extreme. anyway, maybe jana’s changed. maybe she’s gotten better.
SnowAngel:
i can’t believe u wld say that!!! do u know what jana said to me today? DO u?
SnowAngel:
i was doing my nails during my free, and janabreezes up and goes, “saw u at carl’s party with rob. did you getcha some?”
zoegirl:
get you some what?
SnowAngel:
what do u think?!
SnowAngel:
and then she goes, “or was it tonnie who got lucky?” then she fake-laughed and said, “just kidding. honestly, i think it’s so big of you not to care that he flirts with other girls.”
zoegirl:
oh, that’s bad
SnowAngel:
do u think she knows something that i don’t? do u really think he’s flirting with tonnie?
zoegirl:
i don’t know. i hope not. but i wouldn’t worry about anything jana says.
SnowAngel:
i know, cuz jana is NOT a nice person.
zoegirl:
agreed.
zoegirl:
here’s what i say: go to bennigan’s. try to have fun, and DON’T obsess about rob. he’s not worth it.
    Fri, Oct 1, 9:45 PM E.D.T .
zoegirl:
maddie! you there?
mad maddie:
um, yeah…
mad maddie:
where’s the fire?
zoegirl:
it’s angela. we need to go over and be with her—NOW.
mad maddie:
???
zoegirl:
she’s been crying to me over the phone for the last hour. she went out to