says, even though Iâm seventeen this Sunday. âBut Iâll leave that for you to discover.â
Great. Now my stomach is a wooden roller coaster going off the rails. I donât want to discover anything. I want to just write it exactly the way Iâd like it to play out onscreen.
âUnfortunately, our time today is up,â she says. âBut when you have a chance, I really do need you to ask your mom to open the mail sometime soon. Weâre now about three months behind on payment, and at some pointââ
âTotally clear,â I say. âIâll mention it to her today. See? Iâm making a note of it right now.â
I jiggle my arm just enough in the cameraâs frame so that it looks as if Iâm writing something down on my desk. But Iâm not. What Iâm mainly doing is Iâm thinking, Thank God Momâs disability checks just get deposited straight to her bank account.
âThank you,â my therapist says.
Her buzzer goes off, and she winces. This makes me happy. I have entertained her.
She likes me.
âQuinn, I have to get that,â she says.
âOf course.â
Iâm already opening another tab on my screen, anyway: this torrent site to rip a few movies to binge on tonight.
âBut I wanted to say something,â she says.
âUh-huh.â
I consider downloading The Philadelphia Story . Maybe I could study Cary Grant and actually, you know, learn something about romance. Iâve never tried to woo a guy before. The closest Iâve come is that I once poured chocolate milk over Tommy âthe Tankâ Fosterâs mashed potatoes, in third grade.
LIFE HACK: Never pour chocolate milk over the mashed potatoes of anyone nicknamed âthe Tank.â
âQuinn, Iâm logging off now, butââ
âGreat, so, next Thursday.â
ââdid you hear what I just said? A moment ago.â
âOh.â Shit. Minimize screen. Click back to Skype. Blink. âSorry.â
âItâs okay,â my therapist says. âBut I said something important.â
Jesus, maybe that school counselor of mine was right. Maybe multitasking is a dangerous myth.
âOkay?â I say.
âI said Iâm proud of you.â
Itâs so quiet in my room that I think I can hear Mom snoring downstairs. Our vents really are connected. I knew it.
âFor what?â I say. My therapist has never been proud of me.
âI shouldnât really say this,â she says, âbutâthis is our first session in which you didnât mention your sister.â
CHAPTER TEN
W hen I was ten years old, a new family moved in across the street. It caused a stir. Most people donât move to Pittsburgh.
Tiffany Devlin was my age, but I was immediately more interested in her substantially older brother. He was tall, and nice . At ten years old, nice wasnât the first adjective Iâd have used to describe grown-up men. Loud , maybe. Or sad . But not nice .
Tiffanyâs twenty-two-year-old brother, Ricky DevlinâTiffany was a âwonderful surprise,â I remember her mom saying once to my momâhad helped his family move in, but he was only staying for the summer. âJust the summer.â
âWhy?â I asked Ricky once, weeks later, when he was babysitting me and Tiffany and Annabeth. âWhy would you move in with your parents?â This boggled my mindâwillingly living with your mom and dad, once you donât have to anymore.
âWell, Iâm a screenwriter,â he said.
âDonât movie people live in Hollywood?â Annabeth said, because Annabeth intuitively knew everything. Always.
âThe ones who sell screenplays do,â Ricky said, and that answered that. Something about it wasnât pathetic though. Ricky was golden, perfect.
He stayed in the Devlinsâ attic, and when it would get really hot, heâd put an oscillating fan in the
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