been thorough in his
tutorials. In this at least, she would not fail her grandfather.
I’m sorry, Jack. But I can’t
go back there.
Never.
Then she disappeared into the
night.
THIRTEEN
Bliss
“Listen! I am not going away
until I see Bliss! I insist! You will have to call the police if you want me to
leave?”
The voice was so strong, so
aggressive and braying, so full of itself, brimming with the complete and total assumption that
it was one hundred percent in the right, filled with the kind of New York arrogance that only a
jaded city dweller could muster. It was the kind of voice that yelled at bike messengers and
barked orders at scurrying underlings for half- caf no-foam ventis , so
loud and insistent that it pierced through the muffled gauze that kept Bliss from seeing and
hearing the outside world.
The Visitor stirred. It was
like watching a coiled snake get ready to spring. Bliss held her breath.
The voice continued its
tirade. “Can you at least tell her who’s here?” What is the meaning of this nonsense?
Bliss jumped. It was the first
time the Visitor had spoken directly to her in a year.
With a start, the lights came
on, and she found she could see and was looking out the window. There was a short bald man
standing at the front door, looking furious and harassing the maid.
“It’s
Henri” , she said.
“Who is he?”
“My modeling
agent.”
“Explain.”
Bliss sent images and memories
to the Visitor: waiting outside the office at the Farnsworth Agency, her portfolio balanced on
her knees, breakfast meetings with Henri over cappuccinos at Balthazar before school, walking the
runway during New York fashion week, the photo shoots in the Starret -Lehigh lofts,
her ad campaigns for Stitched for Civilization, jetting off for shoots in the Caribbean, her
photographs on billboards, magazine spreads, plastered on the sides of buses and on top of taxis.
“Um, I’m
a model?” she reminded him.
The cobra relaxed, coils
unfurling, forked tongue withdrawn. But a tense wariness remained. The Visitor was not
amused.
A model. A
living mannequin.
Quickly he reached a decision. “Get rid of him. I have been remiss to let this happen. We shall keep up
appearances. No one must suspect you are not you. Do not fail me.”
“What do
you mean ?, what do you want me to do?” , Bliss asked, but before she could
finish, she was SMACK, back in her body, completely in control. This was nothing like last week’s
pathetic attempt to brush her bangs away from her forehead. She had realized how much of herself
he was keeping from her, a thought she tried to shelter from him.
It was like coming back to
life after being trapped in a coffin. She wobbled like a newborn colt. It was as if the world was
coming into focus after years of watching a grainy, fuzzy movie version. She could smell the
hollyhocks outside her window, she could taste the salt in the sea air.
Her hands, her hands were her
own. They felt light and strong, not weighed down and heavy. Her legs were moving; she was
walking! She tripped over the rug. Ouch! She pushed herself up and walked more carefully. But her
freedom came at a price, for she sensed him, a presence, in the space just behind (that rear
passenger seat), waiting, watching. This is a test, she thought. He wants to see what I’m going
to do. I need to pass. . . . Get rid of Henri. But Henri must not suspect anything odd has
happened to me.
She opened her bedroom door,
savoring the feel of the cold bronze doorknob in her hand, and ran down the stairs.
“Wait! Manuela! Let him in?”
she called, running to the foyer. It was a joy to hear her voice out in the world again , her wonderful throaty voice carrying in the air. It sounded different
inside her head. She felt like singing.
“Bliss! Bliss?”
the bald man cried. Henri looked exactly the same: the same rimless eyeglasses, the