Free Yours Book 3: Life Mastered by Blue Saffire

take care of you all,” Nick murmurs against my temple and all my worries float away with the sincerity in his words.
     
     
     

 
    chapter Eleven
    My Submission
    Nick
    I am still in awe. We are having twins. When the shock wore off Sephora was able to get dressed, and we sat with John to really listen to everything he had to share. I am so grateful to him because I know I lost my shit in that exam room. I needed that time to pull myself together. I needed the comfort that my wife offered as it sunk in that I will finally be a father and not to one, but two babies.
    When he handed the sonogram pictures of our little babies over I thought I would lose it again. They are just two little peanuts, but I couldn’t love them more. Hearing their heartbeats. It was the first thing that pushed me over. I just knew, the moment I heard them I just knew we were having more than one baby.
    I was thrown back in time to when I first heard Nicky’s heartbeat. Ivana had been five months. It was the first time she had taken me along for an appointment. I was nervous and thought I would be sick, but the first time I heard my little girl’s heartbeat I was floored.
    Just like this morning, hearing my two little Royals’ heartbeats broke me down and grabbed my heart instantly. A prince and a princess or two of either, it doesn’t matter. I love them so much, and their mother…how can I love her anymore?
    I ask myself that every morning and every night, yet I love her more and more each day. This is why I have made the choice I am making today. Sephora needs this more than I do. I intend to give her a gift that will transcend any other I can ever give. It is a gift once given to me.
    “Nick, where are you,” Sephora asks from beside me.
    “Um,” I turn to look at my wife. She had been just as stunned as I was to get the news. Now I can see the thoughts racing through her pretty little head. I groan internally when I see the question that is on the surface. I could strangle John.
    I wanted to rip his hands off, to begin with, for touching my wife. I thought I was going to pass out from rage when he brought out that wand. I thought I would be able to handle John being Sephora physician a little better. I think I would have been fine if I hadn’t watched Sephora’s reaction to him walking into the room.
    I’ll admit John is a good looking man. Just as his sister Annalise is a gorgeous woman. I just hadn’t thought of how Sephora would see him. I have never before been so jealous, not in any other relationship. Not even with Ivana.
    However, I really wanted to strangle him when he mentioned Annalise and our past. I knew he meant no harm and was just too late in realizing he said too much. Annalisa is a sweet girl, but John was right. I was not the right man for her.
    Annalisa is too submissive. That is what got her hurt. She gave in to my dark side, and I got carried away. I haven’t seen her since. She took off and started traveling the world as a pediatrician. Last I heard she was in Haiti.
    I sigh knowing that if I don’t answer the questions I see it will nag at Sephora. I don’t want her to stress about anything. So I speak up.
    “Yes, Annalisa was once my sub,” I reply to the questions in her eyes.
    “What happened,” Sephora asks, sensing more to the story.
    I shrug. “Pretty much what happened with Luke and Kimmie. Only, I knew I was skirting the edge. So did Annalise. She allowed me to lose myself. We were friends, but she wanted more. I believe she thought she could get more by pleasing my beast. I didn’t see that until after things went too far. I broke things off, and she left.”
    Sephora furrows her brows. “Nick-,” Sephora starts, but I place a finger over her lips.
    “You give me the perfect balance for what I need. This I plan to show you,” I say and leave it at that.
    We ride in silence the rest of the way home. I leave Sephora to her thoughts as I mentally prepare for what I have planned for us. I