women.â And then, suddenly serious again. âDaddyâs quite hopelessly possessive about that bloody mine. Wonât let anybody go near it.â She got up. âIâll get you the Journal. Then at least you can read about it â how it all started.â She came back a few minutes later with an old box file full of typed pages. She opened it and placed it on the table in front of me. âYouâll learn more from this than you would from Daddy. Sometimes I think heâs scared of Golden Soak.â
âBecause itâs unsafe?â
âNo, itâs more complicated than that â a love-hate feeling he has.â She was turning the pages of typescript. âI canât explain. I donât really understand it myself. But when he was a young man, think how exciting it must have been for him. Going down there, working with the miners â it made a change from riding fences and working sheep in the heat and the dust. And the miners themselves, he always says they were a different breed. He got a great kick out of the fact that we had a mine on the station.â Her fingers smoothed a page. âThere you are. December 22nd, 1905, and a drought every bit as bad as weâve got now. Start reading from there.â
âBut why should he hate the mine?â
âI think youâll understand when you read some of the later passages.â Her hand was on my shoulder, her breath on my cheek, and I heard her sigh. âHe wonât talk about it. But I know he does hate it.â She straightened up. âYouâve got to remember what a drain Golden Soak has been. It never made money, not after the first few years. And yet, owning a mine like we do, thereâs always the hope at the back of our minds â that one day itâll turn out beaut and make our fortunes and weâll be rich and live happily ever after.â She was laughing, a note of wistfulness. âYou read that while I clear the things away. Then youâll understand how my grandfather must have felt, why we all have this stupid, quite illogical feeling that weâre sitting on a fortune, a sort of Pandoraâs box, if only we knew how to open the lid.â
âThe official price of gold hasnât changed in thirty years,â I said gently.
âI know that. But it doesnât make any difference. I still dream dreams that one day.â¦â She shrugged, turning quickly away and beginning to clear the table. âMaybe after a few days, if you can spare the time, Daddyâll get used to you being here and Iâll be able to persuade him to take you down. Actually, Iâve never been down myself. The ladders are gone and the winch gear broken. He always said it was too dangerous.â She went out then and by the light from the single bulb and the flickering candles I began to read Big Bill Garretyâs account of driving cattle from the Turee Creek area to the goldfields at Nullagine:
22nd Dec: Two more soaks gone and the last bore run dry. Buried a dozen carcases and started driving the live beasts at sundown. About 60 head. Maurie told me two days back theyâre short of meat at the goldfields now and the miners paying high prices. But these poor beasts are skin and bone and I doubt Iâll get more than a score of them through. Camped at dawn where some eucs gave a little shade for us and the cattle. Made only 9 miles during the dark and still another 12 to Pukara. If that waterhole is dry, then thereâs nothing between here and the Fortescue, unless I take them into the gullies below Coondewanna and up through the homestead. But Pukara should be all right â itâs one of the blackmanâs sacred waterholes inhabited by the ghosts of two Watersnake men of the Dreamtime. They sprinkle penis blood there. Iâve seen them do it. But not my two jackaroos â theyâre from down around Kunderong .
23rd Dec: Left 7 dead, starting again at