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âLanghorne and Bédard have turned out to be not just fanatics, but megalomaniacs. Iâve left a complete file for you, with all the details. I donât have the heart to recite them all for you now. But the short version is that it turns out Langhorne and his inner clique never trusted me quite as completely as I thought they had. They deployed a complete orbital kinetic strike system without ever telling me, as their senior military officer, a thing about it. I never knew it was there, couldnât take any steps to neutralize it. And when Shan-wei and her supporters resisted their efforts to turn themselves into gods, they used it. They killed her, Nimueâher and all of the people trying to openly maintain any memory of our true history.â
A PICA had no heart, not in any physical sense, but the heart Nimue Alban no longer possessed twisted in anguish, and he cleared his throat, then shook his head hard.
âTo be honest, I thought about waking you up, having this conversation with you in person, but I was afraid to. Iâve lived a long time now, Nimue, but youâre still young. I didnât want to tell you about Shan-wei. For a lot of reasons, really, including the fact that I know how much you loved her and I wasâ¦too cowardly to face your pain. But also because I know you . You wouldnât have been willing to âgo back to sleepâ until youâd personally done something about her murder, and I canât afford to lose you. Not now. Not for a lot of reasons. Besides, youâd probably try to argue with me about my own plans. And when you come right down to it, no time will pass for you between now and when you actually see this message, will it?â
His bittersweet smile was crooked, but when he spoke again, his voice was brisker, almost normal-sounding.
âWe did our best to give you at least some of the tools youâll need if you decideâif you decide, as the person you are now , not the Nimue Alban who originally volunteered for thisâto continue with this mission. We didnât really think weâd be able to do that, since we hadnât known Langhorne would decide to keep Hasdrubal with the main fleet instead of personally overseeing Safeholdâs terraforming. We were delighted that he did, at the time, because it gave us a lot more freedom. Of courseââhe smiled bitterlyââwe didnât realize then why he was staying there. Even without him looking over our shoulder, though, we couldnât begin to give you everything I would have liked to. There were still limits to what we dared to âdisappearâ from the equipment lists, but Shan-wei and I showed a little creativity during the terraforming operations. So youâll have some computer support, the most complete records we could provide, and at least some hardware.
âIâve set the timer to activate thisâ¦depot, I suppose, seven hundred and fifty standard years after I complete this recording. I arrived at that particular timing because our best projections indicate that if the Gbaba didnât decide Kau-zhiâs fleet was all of Operation Arkâs units, and if their scout ships continued to sweep outward, it ought to take them a maximum of about five hundred years to pass within easy detection range of radio emissions or neutrinos from this system. So Iâve allowed a fifty percent cushion to carry you through the threat zone of immediate detection. Thatâs how long you will have been âasleep.ââ
He shook his head again.
âI canât begin to imagine what itâs going to be like for you, Nimue. I wish thereâd been some way, any way, I could have avoided dropping this burden on you. I couldnât find one. I tried, but I couldnât.â
He sat silent once more for several seconds, his holographic eyes gazing at something no one else had ever been able to see, then blinked back into