my chance to do something with May or Sheila after school. As I grabbed some books from my locker, someone tapped me on the shoulder and I almost dropped them. I turned to see Billy standing behind me.
He said, âYou walking home?â
Buffalo Bill, Billyâreality stranger than a poem. I hadnât seen him since the kiss. Talk to him, I thought. Now. Before he leaves. âYes.â
âWant to walk home together?â he asked.
As we stepped out into the sunlight-soaked world, Tonyâs gold car was idling in front of the school. He was everywhere lately. For a moment I thought he was waiting for me, but then Debbie came over and got in.
May and Sheila walked up to us, and May beamed at Billy and said, âLindaâs picking us up. She can give you a ride home.â She added, âAnd you, too, Caroline.â
Billy shook his head. âNo, thanks. I need the exercise.â
May frowned. âCaroline, you can still come if you want.â
âThatâs okay. I need the exercise, too.â I tried to look disappointed I wasnât going with her.
For a moment, she was at a loss for words. Then Linda pulled up in a bright red convertible. âLast chance, guys,â she said. âTop down.â
Billy smiled. âMaybe another time.â As they sped away, Billy shook his head. âMay doesnât like to hear âno.ââ
As we walked, circles of sweat formed under my armpits. My dress was plastered to my back, and my shoes hurt. More than anything I wanted a cold drink, but there werenât any stores, just house after house, all the same, right down to their brown front lawns with prickly cacti rising out of the dust.
When we were in front of his house, I said, âThank God. I canât take another step.â
âIf my bike wasnât broken, I wouldnât be walking,â Billy said.
âYour bike is broken?â
âYeah. I wiped out coming home from a party at a dry wash in the desert.â
âWhat were you doing at one of those parties?â Jess had told me about how kids liked to hang out and drink in the dry creek beds in the desert.
âDrinking,â Billy said. âDonât look so surprised, Caroline. Everyone drinks.â He wiped some sweat from his brow. âCan I ask you a question?â
I smiled, waiting for something romantic. âOkay.â
âI was wondering how youâre dealing with it.â
My heart sank when I realized he was talking about my sister, but I gave him the advice people always gave me. âI just put it out of my mind and go on. What else is there to do?â
âRight.â Billy paused. âWe got a letter from Steve yesterday.â He let out a slow sigh. âHe saw someone get his head blown off. Itâs good to hear from him, but I wouldnât want to know if something like that happened to Steve. Iâd rather go on thinking heâs all right.â He looked at me. âIs that how you feel about Jess?â
For a second I couldnât speak.
âI wish I had a letter from her,â I finally said. âIt could say, âI hate you allâ or âIâm never coming back,â it wouldnât matter. Just hearing from her would be enough. Not knowing is the worst.â My stomach was in a knot. âShe could be a pain, but itâs a bummer not having her around.â
âI always assumed Steve would be here to watch my games.â His face stiffened. âThis war is ruining everything. My dad will kill me, but if itâs still going on when I graduate, Iâm going to Canada.â
I looked at him in disbelief. âAnd run away like Jess?â
âCaroline,â he said. He kicked a stone into the gutter. It clattered when it hit the bottom. âI meant to tell you a while ago, but I didnât know how. That party I mentioned was on the night your sister went missing.â
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Ever Coming, Michelle Fox