words silently, then aloud, whispering, trying to make sense of them. â âNot till we are lost, in other words, not till we have lost the world, do we begin to find ourselves, and realize where we are and the infinite extent of our relations.â â
The cover released its final hold and fell off. Figures. Thoreauâs words made sense when I read them outside in the woods, but they were meaningless sitting on the floor of a suburban closet.
I didnât want to climb in Michigan. Another protest of sorts.
Fine, send me away from the mountains, then I wonât climb. Iâll get rusty and flub my next competition, just like I had the last one, and what will you think about that, Mom and Dad?
I picked up an old copy of
Climbing Magazine
and flipped to the back where there was a list of climbing gyms around the country. Under Michigan, it said Planet Granite, Pontiac. I didnât know where Pontiac was. Maybe I didnât even care. I just wanted to go back to California. I needed to go home.
The phone rang from the kitchen, and I raced out of my room and down the hall. Grandpa beat me by three seconds and picked it up with a grin.
âItâs your mother. Would you like to talk first?â he asked.
I nodded and took the phone.
âMom?â
âHi sweetie.â Static cut through Momâs voice. She sounded small and far away.
I took the phone into my room and shut the door. âWhere are you?â
âWeâre still in Ecuador,â Mom said. âBut weâve left Mount Chimborazo. Your dad isââ
Static took over her words.
âYou disappeared for a second,â I said. âIs Dad okay?â
âHeâs fineâMaxâtaking it veryââ Momâs voice disappeared every few words.
âHe needs to come home,â I said. âI need to go home too.â
âI wish it were that easy.â
âWhatâs so hard about it?â
âYour dad doesnât think he can handle going back to the cabin now.â
Momâs voice came through clearly for a moment, then static drowned her out again. Dad and Uncle Max had restored our cabin in California themselves. It was a run down, abandoned shack when we first found it, and they spent an entire year turning it into a cozy home. But I had helped too. I had pounded nails and grouted tile right alongside them.
I stepped out of my room, trying to get better reception, but the problem was on Momâs end of the line. She had given up calling my cell, but now it was just as bad on the landline. It sounded like someone was crinkling wrapping paper in my ear.
âHe feels like he owes Max. If he canât give Max his life back, heâs going to live his life for him. Something like that, but more complicated. Itâs hard to explain.â
âWhat about me? Our cabin is even more special because of Uncle Max. We canât leave it.â
âI know. I agree. ButâDadâsâready yet. And weâveâtalkâ whatâs best for you. âwant you to stayâschool. âbest placeâwith Grandma and Grandpa.â
âMom!â I shouted. âI can hardly hear you!â
âMaxâs dreamâK2. âfirstâhead southâPeru, thenââ
The phone was silent.
âMom? Are you there?â
Silence.
âOh come on!â I smacked the phone against the wall. I dialed Momâs cell. Busy signal. I waited a few seconds and dialed again. Still busy.
My parents and I had been arguing about school for years. They kept saying it was time for me to have a real education. They said I couldnât count on a climbing career; I needed something to fall back on. Like accounting or something. They wanted me to go to college, and their version of homeschooling wasnât going to cut it. They said I needed a real school with real homework, real tests, and real grades. They said I needed a real life. I