still need to do is tell Amber Vaughn how I feel.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
I was ready
Time to go
One phone call
One swift blow
I never worked up the nerve to call Amber on Saturday. I worked nonstop on her songs, but somehow actually reaching out, now that I could without guilt, scared the shit out of me. Now here it is Sunday afternoon, and Iâm still staring at my phone like itâs a two-headed rattlesnake. Come on, Will. You got this.
I hit her number. It rings a couple of times, and then she answers. Her voice is bright and breathless.
âHello?â
âHey, Amber.â Then I think about how she must think we left things on Friday night. âSorry our practice got cut short Friday.â
âItâs okay. I understand.â
âCan we try again? Tomorrow after chorus? Iâve been working on âAve Maria.ââ
Thereâs a pause. âAre you sure you want to?â
Does she want to? âI told you Iâd help.â
âI know. I just donât want your girlfriend pissed off at you. Not that Iâm a threat or anything, butââ
Iâve got to stop her. Let her know. âNot So Plain and Small.â
âYeah?â
I clear my throat. âIt doesnât matter what she thinks.â
âIt doesnât?â
âNo.â There. Iâve done it. A huge weight lifts from my shoulders.
But she keeps talking like she didnât hear me. âHey,â Amber says. âWould you help me with an errand after school, before practice?â
Iâm not sure she understands what I just told her. I did tell her, didnât I?
âSure, what do you need?â
âIâve got to go by the pawnshop to pay for a guitar.â
âA guitar?â Why are we talking about guitars and not the fact that I broke up with my girlfriend? âIs it for you?â
Sheâs super-quiet for a long time. Then she says, âItâs for Sean. I took up a collection and we got him a Gibson. Seanâs really good. We should all play together sometime.â
And there is the mic drop. I am speechless. I waited too long.
âWill?â
I must make some guttural sound.
âIs that okay?â
âOh, yeah sure.â Fuck, fuck, fuckity motherfuck, fuck. âUm, listen. Iâve got to run. Iâll see you tomorrow, okay?â
When I hit the off button, I stare at the phone.
Then I throw it against my wall.
Later in the afternoon, Devon comes and finds me out back where Iâm sulking with a Ron Rash book in the tree platform Dad built for us. Weâd laughed at the time, because we were already in high school, but his fulfilling his boyhood dream for us actually turned out to be a good thing. Itâs both me and my brotherâs favorite thinking spot.
âHere.â Devon hands me a Gatorade and a warm pumpkin muffin. âDad got all domestic this afternoon. Told me to bring you one.â
âThanks, man.â
Devon settles back against a post. âWhatcha reading?â
I hold up the book. âSome dude. Teaches down at Western Carolina. Short stories. Theyâre pretty good.â
Devon nods.
âHowâs it going with Skype boy?â
Itâs like my brotherâs internal lightbulb switches on. âHeâs great.â
âHuh,â I say.
âWhat? Donât tease. I really like him. Heâs cool. Youâll like him, too. He skis and sails and is really into archaeology.â
âWhat about music?â
âEnough.â
I eat the muffin and we settle into brother quiet. Off in the distance a woodpecker hammers a dead tree. Eventually, Devon speaks again. âFound your phone. I was sort of curious why it was on the floor with a cracked screen, so I did some snooping.â
I put the book down.
âI thought I was going to find Amber Roseâs number as the last dialed and that yâall had gotten into it again. Was sort of surprised to see