for.â
I immediately flash back to that night in our basement. âYou donât really need to.â
âI really do.â
âPlease, donât. Itâs cool, weâre cool.â
But Marty wonât be diverted from his mission. âIâm really sorry for what I said, but I didnât like that you were gay, and Iâm sorry for being such an asshole.â
And that, as far as Marty is concerned, really is that.
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B Y 1980, I make the radical decision that anthropology can wait. So can professional fencing. I decide to become a dancer instead. My father is not happy. He doesnât give me a hard time, though, because I know despite his protestations, he wants me to be happy.
So I move to downtown Detroit, work part-time in a sandwich bar, and take a job with Mari Windsorâs Harbinger dance company.
Over the year I spend dancing with Harbinger, I get a deeper education in dance. I discover Alvin Ailey, Katherine Dunham, and new and inspiring styles of dance.
Madonna, however, is not impressed.
During one of our periodic phone calls she says, âIf you really want to be a dancer, Christopher, you have to be in New York.â
I know sheâs right, but donât know if Iâm ready yet to take on the Big Apple.
Sensing that I am tempted, my siren of a sister says, âCome to New York, and you can stay with me in my apartment. Iâll introduce you to people. Iâll take classes with you. Iâll get you into a company.â
Within days, I pack everything I own into my big green duffel bag, and off I go to Emerald City, where I assume Glinda the Good Witch will be awaiting me with open arms.
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A S PREARRANGED WITH Madonna, I fly to JFK and take a cab into the city. The driver drops me a few blocks from the address Madonna gave me, so I have to walk a bit. By now, itâs late at night and I arrive at Madonnaâs apartment, in a prewar building on West Ninety-fourth and Riverside, my back aching from lugging the duffel bag. Nonetheless, overflowing with excitement and great expectations, I ring the bell.
The door opens, whereupon I am confronted by Madonna Part Four (Part One, the cheerleader; Part Two, the serious dancer; Part Three, the punk drummer), whom I hardly recognize. She is dressed in an odd-looking outfit: black crop top, short red plaid skirt, black panty hose, ankle boots, black leather studded bracelets, and a black rag knotted into her matted hair.
She takes a lipstick-stained cigarette out of her mouth.
Before I can exclaim, âBut, Madonna, youâve never smoked before!â in one breath she announces, âHi, Christopher, you canât live here after all.â
Straight and to the point, with no sugarcoating.
âWhat do you mean I canât live here? I just gave up my life in Detroit. My apartment, my job, everything.â
Madonna shrugs. âWhateverâ¦â
Seeing my crestfallen face, she relents slightly. âYou can sleep on the floor for a couple of nights, but thatâs it.â
Iâm dumbstruck.
She reaches into her jeans and pulls out a tablet. âHere, try this. Itâll make you feel better.â
Feeling like a hick, I ask her what it is.
âJust take it,â she says firmly.
I take it from her and later discover that itâs ecstasyâor MDMA as it was called at that time.
I also note that, unlike the joint, at least this time, she hasnât charged me.
She beckons me to follow her into the apartment. With wood floors and crown molding, itâs one of those prewar apartments with lots of bedrooms that are prevalent on the Upper West Side of Manhattan.
We enter an open foyer that leads into a large living room filled with broken furniture. To the right of us, a kitchen and another living room; to the left of us, a thirty-foot hallway. I am amazed at the size of the place. Walking through the cavernous apartment, I am surprised that my sister has said