time and Iâll be straight.
Halfway through the movie Nevaeh says she wants to talk to me about something. She had mentioned it to me earlier too, but I was trying to avoid the conversation. See, she doesnât know about me and Midori. She knows I know her and Ray, but she doesnât know that she and I are intimate. Nevaeh is the jealous type, and even though we arenât officially together, she would step to Midori like we were, and I donât feel like all the drama.
âSo, are we going to make it official or not?â Nevaeh asks through bites of popcorn.
I try to act like I didnât hear her, but she pops me in the head and asks again.
âNevaeh, you know we donât work out. With your schedule and mine, we wouldnât be able to connect like we should,â I say, not wanting to tell her how I really feel. I mean, sheâs excellent in bed, but otherwise she is a pain in the ass.
âI understand that you have things to do, and Iâm willing to give you room. I know how important your books are, and I wonât bother you. I think you should give us a chance.â
âYou say that now, but you know how you get. Remember what happened the last time?â
âI know, and Iâm a different person now. Give me a chance.â
I think about it for a while before responding. It ainât like Midori is ever going to leave Ray. Shit, the way theyâre living, sheâd be a fool. Itâs obvious from her not showing up this morning that her loyalty lies with her husband. On the flip side of all that, I know Nevaeh is so extra, and Iâm really not in the mood.
âSo, youâre just going to ignore me, huh?â Nevaeh says like she was hurt.
âLook, letâs just see what happens. We can be exclusive, but letâs not rush into anything. I donât want to hurt you, and I donât want to be hurt either. Is that fair?â
âIâm cool with that, but for how long?â
âWeâll just play it by ear, Nevaeh.â
âOkay, but one last question.â
I turn to look at her, so she can see the annoyance on my face. This is part of the reason why I donât want to go there with her. Iâm making a mistake, and I know it. Later on Iâll regret this, Iâm sure.
âWhatâs your question?â
âDo you love me?â
âYes, Nevaeh, I love you.â
âOkay, I was just making sure.â
Shaking my head, I turn back around to watch the movie, but soon Iâm fast asleep. Thoughts of Midori rush through my mind, but I know I have to move on. All we have are memories and bullshit, and I am definitely cool on that.
I will tell you exactly where I was but . . .
Midori
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âYou keep cutting me off.â It isnât until Wednesday afternoon that I finally find a free minute to call Jaydah. She wonât let me get a word in edgewise, but thatâs to be expected.
Ray hasnât left my side since we got here, but it wasnât until this morning that I find out that he is really down here for a physicianâs convention. Itâs bad enough that I am forced here as it is, and I have to actually act like I want to be here, but I didnât think he would be all up under me like that. At first I was pissed, but when I realized that it gave me a free minute to use the phone without having to sneak into another room, I was suddenly elated.
âWhy the fuck are you calling me now? Itâs been three days, and you stood me up. Midori, I can do without the extra bullshit.â
âBut you wonât even let me explainââ
âLet you explain what? That youâre so into yourself, you donât give a damn about me? After all the shit we been through, and this is how it turns out for me?â
Jaydahâs going off, but what can I do? Everything she said was true, but she knew I was married going in. When did things change? I knew when she gave me the