cheating on her all along with Vivian, sheâd realized that her mother had been right after all. Cynthia struggled now to remember exactly what her mother had said that day. She could use those words of wisdom right now.
âClarissa, sweetheart,â Cynthia said, sitting on the edge of the bed, âlook, I know youâre angry. I know how you feel, honey. Really I do.â
She faced Clarissaâs cracked closet door and saw that clothes were spilled onto the floor. She would lecture Clarissa about cleaning up her closet later, but for now, sheâd focus on the issue at hand.
âIâm going to tell you something . . . something that not any of my sisters know.â Cynthia cleared her throat. âThey all act like they invented breaking the rules, like theyâre the only ones whoâve fallen in love with guys that no one suspected they would, but itâs not true. I-I . . .â She pushed back her shoulders. âI did it too, honey, before I married your father. I fell in love with a guy who probably would have been a mistake. He loved me too . . . or at least I thought he did. It made it even harder to walk away from him. But your grandmother explained it to me logically. And she made a lot of sense, baby. She said, âCindy, a woman doesnât have the luxury of thinking with her heart. She has to think with her head. She doesnât have just the responsibility of herself to worry about. She has to think about the children sheâll have in the future. Will the man be a provider? Will she have to hold him up? Love will come and goâthatâs just a fact of lifeâbut money and a roof over your head can be a shelter against many storms.â â
Cynthia paused, hoping she was getting through to her daughter. She anxiously fingered the belt of her silk robe as she spoke.
âIt still hurt, Clarissa, and . . . Iâll tell you the truth. In some ways, after all these years, the pain of walking away from him has never gone away. But I-I still think it was the right decision. I made a good life for youâfor us . Youâve never wanted for anything. Youâve always been taken care of. I hope you can make the same sacrifice, honey.â She turned to look at her daughter. Cynthia reached for her. âSo if you would justââ
She halted when she placed her hand on her daughterâs shoulder. Instead of feeling solid bone underneath her fingertips, she felt the soft give of a pillow. Cynthia hesitantly pulled back the sheets and saw that it was a pillow. She stood and yanked back the sheets even farther and saw that in addition to the pillow, an oversized stuffed giraffeâa keepsake Clarissa had won years ago at a carnivalâwas also underneath the sheets, but Clarissa wasnât there. She wasnât in her bed.
âClarissa? Clarissa? â Cynthia shouted. She looked around her daughterâs bedroom frantically. âOh, my God!â
She ran toward the walk-in closet and threw open the French doors. Not only were clothes strewn around the floor, but several hangers were empty. Cynthiaâs eyes darted to the closet shelves. Two pieces of Clarissaâs Louis Vuitton luggage were missing too.
âOh, God, please donât do this to me! Please donât tell me this is happening! Not again!â Cynthiaâs eyes glistened with tears.
How had she not heard Clarissa packing? Why didnât she hear her leave? Did Clarissa sneak out of the bedroom window again?
Cynthia grabbed the frame of the door to steady herself. She felt faint.
She turned and stumbled out of the closet, intending to run into the hallway to call her sister Lauren. Maybe Clarissa had gone running to her again. Cynthia dashed toward the bedroom doorway, then paused when she caught something out of the corner of her eye. It was a note on Clarissaâs dresser. Cynthia spotted her daughterâs distinctive bubbled cursive script. She
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