but I already felt closer to who I really was.
I tried to keep my persistent happiness from bleeding over into thoughts of Lochlon back in Ireland, caring for his dying father, but it wasnât easy.
Even though this was the first time that I had legit reason to think that we might actually meet up again, I had already imagined our reunion with embarrassing frequency and in bodice-ripping fashion. It helped that he had actually ripped my clothes off me on more than one occasion in his sudden and passionate way. I could still recall the tingling, lusty head rush of being naked in front of him. A yearâs worth of fantasizing left me desperate to feel that way again.
16
A FEW DAYS later, I accidently ruined the girlsâ dinner by taking them to the Kensington Crêperie, where we ordered dessert crêpes roughly the size of Hula-Hoops. The café was cozy and bathed in warm, earthy light, which spilled out of the fogged-up windows like honey. Through the cobblestone plaza outside, people rushed home under winter-bare trees and a misting of frosty rain.
I made the girls bring their homework, but so far Gwendy and I had just been chatting while Mina filtered in and out of the conversation, mainly staying focused on her cell phone.
âMina and I both go to the same school. But Minaâs school is in a different building from mine, because sheâs older. Minaâs the most popular girl in her schoolâI know it. And sheâs also the prettiestâeven though Mom says we canât say that. And she also is the funniest.â Gwen swirled the Nutella around her deconstructed crêpe.
Minaâs thumbs scurried over her phone. She hadnât eaten much of her banana crêpe. I eyed it longingly, though Iâd just polished off my own (fresh strawberries, white Belgian chocolate, Chantilly cream, and magic).
âJeez, how much are you paying the hobgoblin for these endorsements?â I nudged Mina.
She skimmed a look away from her phone screen for one solitary second. âWhat can I say? Gwendolyn has an excellent and observant eye.â
âI have
two
excellent eyes,â corrected Gwen, all abuzz in a souped-up sugar high.
âDo you want the rest of my crêpe, Kika?â Mina asked, noticing that it was the object of my lovestruck gaze. âI donât want any more.â
âSeriously?â I asked. âOh, come on, eat it. Carpe diem!â
âHuh?â Mina frowned.
Gwendy studied her face and then replicated it. âHuh?â
I sighed and dragged the dish in front of me. âIt means âYOLOâ in Latin,â I told them before sawing off a bite.
Mina went back to her phone.
âSo Mina,â I said, trying hard to keep her attention. âWho are you texting?â
Mina shielded her phone from me. âUm, no one.â
âIs it a boy?â
Gwen made the obligatory
oooooh
noise.
Mina glared at us. âIâm texting Peaches Benson-Westwood, my best friend at school. Sheâs, like, really, really rich. And the most popular girl at schoolâwell, weâre both equally popular.â
âPeaches Benson-Westwood? Do all English people have three-name monikers?â I thought of that guy from the otherday: Aston Hyde Bettencourt. I only remembered his name because it was so snooty and ridiculous.
The phone absorbed her full attention again. âPretty much.â
But then, Mina turned toward the sound of giggles coming from the table next to us. I leaned over her shoulder and stole a glance at her phone screen. She wasnât texting at allâshe was playing Candy Crush Saga.
She turned back around, and I ruffled Gwenâs hair as a diversion. âAnd what about you, Gwen? No friends at school yet?â
âNope!â said Gwen cheerfully. âMom says I donât play well with others!â She beamed with pride.
âAnd why is that?â I asked.
âBecause the other kids are crack