she is. Although, I wish sheâd just ask me to move next time â¦â
âNo, not the Japanese girl,â he said, painfully uncomfortable. âThe ⦠the, you know ⦠the kiss.â
âOh ⦠that.â That wasnât just troubleâthat was crazy and wonderful and hot and unbearable and amazing. And definitely not something I wanted to discuss with Henry. If Iâve learned anything from watching The Bachelorette , itâs that you have to keep all your relationships separate.
Henry was still stammering through his piece. âItâs not that I donât like Chris, you see. Itâs only that I donât think heâd be very good for you. He seems rather intense when it comes to you. The way he looks at you, itâs like youâre the only girl in the world, as if he wants to drag you back to his cave or something.â
God help me, I shivered at the volley of images: Chris throwing me over his shoulder, carrying me away, tossing me onto a bed somewhere, pinning my hands over my head, forcing his lips to mine â¦
âSo, I hope this isnât too forward, but I just thought you should know.â He leaned forward, earnestly. He was so wretchedly adorable that I wasnât sure what to say. He didnât need to know that my body cried out for Chris like a One Direction fan in the front row, or that I was considering jumping Chris if the opportunity allowed.
Henry also didnât need to know that I had no intention of letting myself fall for Chris. I could never trust him with my heart. I just want to be near him, with him, on him as much as possible while weâre here on the island.
All of that makes me sound like a truly awful excuse for a human being. Iâm sorry, world, but I canât help how I feel. Tell me youâve never used someone for their body, or guarded your heart against someone you know will only hurt you, and you can throw the first stone.
My biggest priority, as it was with Meghan, was to make Henry feel understood. âThank you, Henry. I really appreciate you bringing this to me.â
His features grew bright with relief. âYouâre so welcome, my lady.â
We rose and walked to the door. âWill you save me a dance at the party tonight?â he asked, his fair eyebrows high.
âOf course! God knows how weâre supposed to dance when nobody is allowed to touch, but weâll make it work.â
Drained, I opened the door, and in lieu of kissing him on the cheek, blew him a kiss as he walked out.
Laughingly, he caught my kiss in his hand and tucked it in his pocket. âFor later,â he explained, walking away down the eastern walkway.
Movement on the north walkway caught my eye. Chris stood there, watching Henry depart with coldness in his eyes.
âChris?â I called. âChris, wait!â
He was gone. Again. Thoroughly irritable, I had no intention of streaking after him in my robe and bare feet. Just you wait, coffee boy. You and I will be having words at the party, oh yes â¦
Turning back inside, I collided with the cameraman, who had crept up close behind me. âOut. Now.â
âBut can we just ask a few questions aboutââ
âGuys, Iâm sure youâre all lovely and I know youâre only doing your jobs. But if you donât leave now, I will be forced to do something crazy.â
âPlease do!â said the manager. âThatâs fantastic for ratings.â
âWhat if I take a dump on the middle of my bed?â
Pause. âOkay, weâll go.â
âCheers, boys!â
***
When I woke up from napping, my cheek was plastered to the pillow with drool. âClassy,â I muttered to myself, wiping at my face and hoping the cameras didnât catch it, so it wouldnât be used for some hilarious âMissed Momentsâ episode.
Another shower was in order. I must say, my bathroom is fast becoming my