husband: This child will never be a hunter.
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Once the traps have been collected, I return home, and by the light of an oil lamp open my notebook. I look distractedly at my recollections for the day.
Are you left-handed, then? the writer walks over and asks.
Yes. But Iâm right-handed when I shoot.
Then, suddenly inspired, I explain that I hold children with my left hand. I canât do that with the hand that kills.
Thatâs strange , Gustavo responds. In most cultures, itâs the left hand that is ill-fated. What tribe did you get such an idea from?
From my own, the Bullseye tribe. Nowadays, Iâm the only one left in the tribe.
And what are you writing, if thatâs not an indiscretion?
Iâm writing this story.
What story?
The story of this hunting expedition. Iâm going to publish a book.
Gustavo canât conceal a nervous smile. My disclosureâs had the effect of a punch in the stomach. Questions then follow, one after the other: A book?⦠And who is going to publish it?⦠And what format would I adopt, a novel, reportage? I put a stop to his barrage of doubts and interrogation. As if to placate him, I ask:
Do you think I wonât manage to do it?
And why wouldnât you be able to?
Writing isnât like hunting. You need a lot more courage. Opening yourself up like that, exposing myself without a weapon, defenseless â¦
Gustavo understands the irony of my words. Then he decides to attack me on my own terrain:
Iâve already told you I hate hunting.
So why are you here?
In this instance, thereâs no alternative if we want to protect human life.
Do you know what I think it is? Fear.
What do you mean?
Youâre scared.
Me?
Youâre scared of yourself. Youâre scared of being hunted by the animal that dwells inside you.
Gustavo turns his back, but I donât give up: No matter how long he might live in a modern, urban world, the primitive bush would still remain alive within him. Part of his soul would always be untamed, full of insuperable monsters.
Come with me to the bush and youâll see: Youâre a savage, my dear writer.
Call me what you like, but I donât find it at all heroic to fire on defenseless animals. Thereâs no glory in such an unequal contest.
Without a word, I take a lionâs claw and tooth from my haversack and place it on the table.
What do you think this is?
Theyâre parts of a lion.
Parts? Theyâre weapons. These are the lionâs shotguns. As you can see, the creature is better equipped than I am. So, whoâs the hunter? Me or him?
This conversation isnât getting us anywhere.
Let me tell you this: For a reporter, you got off to a really bad start.
Whyâs that?
You didnât understand why I destroyed the traps.
And you got off to an even worse start: Before destroying them, you didnât even bother to speak to the people whoâd spent so much time making them.
Do you know something, my writer friend? It would be better if Iâd come here to hunt vampires rather than lions. Vampires sell well, and youâd have a guaranteed bestseller.
I blow on the candle and darkness falls over the room. Outside, the full moon awakens some feline restlessness within me. Beneath my closed eyelids, my mind returns again to Luzilia. Suddenly, however, another vision emerges before me. Itâs a beautiful young black girl. Itâs a local girl smiling on the riverbank. She is faceless, and could be any woman from the village. Tonight, I sleep with all the women of Kulumani.
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I hadnât been asleep for long before I heard roars. The world remained in suspense. A lionâs growl leaves no silence in its wake.
Can you hear? the writer asked, in a panic.
Itâs a lioness. Itâs still a long way off.
The roars gradually faded away. Silence fell over the darkness. At last, I could begin my war with
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