thinking I deserve a medal for holding my little sisterâs head for two hours while she pukes, but instead I get grief because I failed to interrupt my mom mid-meltdown with a newsflash.
And whatâs even worse, according to her, is that I didnât call her at the restaurant so she could race right home.
I say, âMom.â
She says, âWhat is wrong with you, Skeezie?â
I say, âWhatâs wrong with me ?â
She says, âYour sister might have been really ill.â
I say, âYeah, but she wasnât.â
She says, âBut you didnât know that.â
I say, âBut I did. Jessie throws up. Remember?â
She says, âBut Iâm her mother.â
I say, âYeah, and Iâm her brother. And I took care of it. Even after you got home. And sheâs fine.â
She doesnât say anything to that. She just sits at the kitchen table, downing her third cup of coffee, and then calls my dad a bad name. At least I assume sheâs talking about my dad.
I glance at the clock over the stove.
âI gotta go to work,â I tell her, thinking no matter what Kevin Hennessey or Becca Wrightsman or anybody else has in store for me today, itâs got to be better than this.
âYou want to know why heâs here?â she says.
âNot really,â I say.
âOh, itâs good,â she says. âItâs rich.â
âThatâs nice,â I say.
âYou think he wants to come back to us?â she says. âIs that what you think?â
She pulls a cigarette out of her purse.
âCould you not smoke in the house?â I say.
âWho made you the mayor?â she says.
She puts the cigarette back.
âHe came back,â she says, âto get a divorce.â
I shrug.
âHe came back to get a divorce because he wants to get married to some girl he met in Rochester.â
âOkay.â
âHe owes me money and he hardly ever sees you kids and he comes back wearing a tie and tells me he wants a divorce so he can marry some girl in Rochester.â
My cereal has turned to mush, which I hate. I pick up the bowl and dump the whole thing in the garbage. Itâs disgusting, but less disgusting than eating it.
âSo I guess I donât have to spend any quality time with him,â I say, keeping my back to her so she doesnât see the part of me that was kind of hoping he was coming back for good. Which, to be honest, totally confuses me.
âHeâs still your father,â she says. âHe has a legalright to see you. And besides, he wants to talk with you about something. He wouldnât say what, just said it was time you two talked man to man.â
Omigod, not The Talk. Anything but The Talk.
âWell, I canât see him today,â I say. âIâm working the lunch shift, and then Zachary asked me to come over and hang out. And thenââ
âHeâs going fishing with Del today,â she says. Del is an old high school friend of my dadâs. âHe wants to spend the day with you tomorrow. I told him fine.â
My cheeks burn so hot you could fry eggs on them. âWho told you that you could tell him fine?â I say, turning to face her. âMaybe I donât want to see my dad. Or maybe, just maybe, I want to decide when Iâm going to see him.â
âDonât get all het up,â my mom says, using one of my grandmaâs expressions. âYou can spare one day out of your busy social life to see your father.â
This is too stinkinâ much!
âSocial life?â I go. âIâm working all the time, remember? And when Iâm not working, Iâm takingcare of your daughters. Youâre out eating garlic knots while Iâm watching Jessie upchuck pizza into the toilet. Itâs a good thing it flushes, thanks to money I earned!â
My mom looks at me like I slapped her. âDo you have any idea how hard it is