guide, wasnât always religious. For a long time heâd led a debauched life, which he didnât attempt to hide. On the contrary, heâd use it to convince us of the virtues of abstinence. He could be completely objective because heâd been down that road. Like many of the chosen ones whoâd been touched by grace, heâd fought a relentless battle against the mediocrity of vice. Being close to the light, he was now filled with inexpressible bliss, an inner peace superior in every way to that produced by hashish. Abu Zoubeir knew the right words, the greedy words to implant in the memory, which, as they grow, ingest all the waste piled up there. Heâd been born and raised in Douar Lahjar, a shantytown even more run-down than ours, if itâs possible to compare derelictions. His encounter with God took place in Kenitra prison, where he spent the best part of a decade. He didnât like to talk about his crime, but we knew that rape and fraud were involved. It was a period of his life he described as supremely wayward. He used to say that prison hadsaved him from himself; having the luck to meet men of faith there was a gift from heaven. So he felt obliged to give back some of the blessings heâd received. His new purpose was to help us purify our souls, to lead us on to the path of righteousness. In fact, that path led straight to death, our own and that of our fellow man, whom we were meant to love. Slam into a blind wall, surrounded by nothingness, where thereâs only regret, remorse, solitude, and desolation. Slam, slam, slam . . .
It felt good, being in the garage. The prayer mats on the walls were embroidered with verses from the Koran, in gold-thread calligraphy. The sparse furniture consisted of a raffia mat, a low table, a television, and a bookcase. Sitting cross-legged, dressed all in white, his beard carefully trimmed, Abu Zoubeir radiated a strange light. When his eyes rested on one of us, we had the impression he was reading our hearts, like a book. He had a sixth sense for discerning our innermost thoughts, our doubts, and our questions, to which he had clear and precise answers.
How old were we when those meetings began? Fifteen, maybe sixteen. Hamid was the first to start visiting Abu Zoubeir. Iâd see them nattering away for hours over by the cesspools, near where weâd buried Morad. Hamid seemed fascinated by the eloquent conversation of his friend, whom he referred to as a guardian angel. To me he was more like a demon. In the beginning, I hatedhim, because my brother didnât notice me anymore, he ignored me. It was as if, overnight, Iâd ceased to exist. Hamid was no longer interested in the Sunday games, or the fights that came after. Or even in his own business, which wasnât doing well. The boys he employed at the dump were stealing from him with complete impunity; but he couldnât care less. Heâd lost all authority over the glue sniffers and his other flunkies, whoâd gone freelance. Worse, heâd stopped getting high and, to crown it all, heâd begun to pray five times a day. The transformation was complete. Yemma was happy because heâd taken a job selling shoes in the city with a friend of Abu Zoubeirâs. Nothing was the same as before. Heâd bore the pants off us with his piety. On Fridays, heâd go to the mosque and take his place in the front row next to Abu Zoubeir, whoâd then give a speech. He let his beard grow; he was the shadow of his former self. Gone was the dandy always up for a fight, sharp as a razor, organizing his own life and everyone elseâs. Mine especially. Iâd grown up and could look after myself now, but I missed him. If, in a game, I made a spectacular save, Iâd glance around for him, in case he was admiring my exploits from afar. I needed his applause, his yelling, his sudden storming of the field to give me a hug. But he wasnât there. His time was divided