Free Finding Peace (Finding Series Book 1) by K. J. Love Page A

engaged and this could get really complicated. I can’t have anything with Blake until I end things with David.” I can tell by the look on Tessa’s face that she isn’t listening to me at all. She is just smiling and looks so happy. “Tessa. Seriously. Nothing. Can. Happen.” Saying it out loud, even if I know it’s true, is like a dagger to my heart. I’m so confused. I sit on the edge of the other bed facing Tessa and the tears come.
    “Tessa, why does it have to be so hard? I don’t know what to do. I have these feelings for Blake that I can’t explain. And Tessa, he was so sweet. He felt the ring before I was able to tell him about being engaged. He was so shocked. He didn’t know what to say at first. We sat together while I told him everything.”
    I’m sobbing so much it’s hard to get the words out. Tessa moves to sit beside me and she wraps her arms around me comforting me.
    “Tessa he asked for this week with me. To just hang out and have fun. What am I going to do? Why couldn’t I have already broken things off with David?”
    “Tell me everything that was said and we can figure this out together like we always do.”
    I start from the beginning and tell her everything. I’ve finally gotten my emotions under control by the time I’m done. Tessa sits there with her mouth hanging open.
    “He said that? Oh crap. How did you not just attack him right then?”
    “Oh, believe me the thought crossed my mind more than once. I’ve never come across anyone like him. He acted so cocky when we were inside with everyone else, but he was completely different with me when we were alone. He was a perfect gentleman. The chemistry between us is undeniable. It’s hard to breathe when he just touches my hand and that small kiss he gave me, I felt like I was going to fall down right there.”
    “Watching the way he was inside the game room, I thought he was just some cocky jerk that you'd see right through. Some of the girls out front were saying he was a player. Knowing that, I figured he'd try something and you'd send him packing in a few minutes. When I went looking for you, I saw y'all sitting on the bench together. Judging by your faces, it looked like things were pretty intense, so I walked back to the girls and just waited. But the longer you were over there, the more I started to believe that maybe they were wrong. I know you, and I know you can spot a guy that only wants one thing from a mile away. The conversation you just described to me, he doesn’t sound like that at all.”
    “I don’t think he is, Tessa. I really think he’s one of the good ones, but I can’t spend a week with him feeling like I do. I’m afraid of what will happen. I’m afraid to open my heart again to anyone. And that’s not even bringing in the fact that I’m still wearing this stupid ring.”
    “Okay. Let’s look at this logically. First, are you finally done with David? No matter what he does or what happens when you get back. You are one hundred percent sure you are going to break up with him?”
    “Yes. I’m sure. I can’t keep this up. And that decision has nothing to do with Blake.”
    I wish I could do it now, right now while I’m feeling strong and determined to do it, but, like I told Blake, that’s not something you do over the phone.
    “Good. I’m so happy and I’m going to make sure you stick to that.” I shake my head yes indicating that I agree. “Second. You obviously have some strange connection to Blake. Then why can’t you spend a week getting to know him? He’s not asking for anything more than that Kayla.”
    That’s the problem. I feel this pull we have and Blake may be saying that’s all he is asking for, but I think deep down, we both know that’s not the truth. He’s just worried if he tells me more than that, that I won’t spend any time with him.
    “That’s what he says, but I know that there is no way we can spend that much time together. Neither one of us will be able to