whenever I crossed paths with some holistic New Ager, maybe itâs time to reconsider. Or Scratch could be some kind of bar-trolling illusionist/hypnotist, with lock-picking skills and a misogynist streak. I could also be suffering a psychotic breakâitâs possible I saw Sam palm the waist belt in the fishbowl before I crashed and burned during my presentation, and my mind just tucked it into a hallucination.
Not great hypotheses, but still in the realm of the reality I know. I pull out my cell phone, hoping to see at least a text from Justin, but no, nothing. A small part of my heart shrivels and dies.
The sensible thing would be to go to the hospital and tell them everything, let them sort out whatâs wrong with me. Thereâs something appealing about the idea of handing it allover to someone else to figure out, letting go. Of course, I just flushed away my only piece of evidence.
âGreat move, Fiona. Brilliant.â Iâm talking to myself. That doesnât seem crazy.
Then, as if to confirm I am crazy, when I look up from my phone, I find Scratch leaning against the hood of my car in the rain, although I couldâve sworn he wasnât there just a second ago. He wears the same clothes from the night beforeâblack leather jacket, dark jeans, knockoff watchâand his hands are tucked into his front pockets; so casual, easy, and relaxed, like itâs a sunny, warm day, not a cold downpour. I struggle to make out his face, but again, itâs a mystery.
My stomach twists. Why canât I see his face?
âDo you know,â he says lightly, like weâre picking up our conversation from the night before and nothing has happened since, âthat Native Hawaiians consider rain a blessing?â
I call mutiny and say nothing.
âYou should feel very blessed today Fiona. Do you?â
A sedan passes by, the driver splashing water on a homeless man slumped by a trash can across the street. He doesnât move. Doesnât stir. Not much of a witness if something else bad happens.
I grip my purse a little tighter. âIâd feel a little more blessed if I wasnât naked when I woke up this morning.â
âOh, that,â he says, and I can feel a smile even if I canât see it. âWhat do you take me for? You were hammered. Iâm not going to lie and say I wasnât tempted; you were pathetic yet attractive in a drowned Ophelia kind of way.â
A compliment or an insult? Iâm not sure. âSo we didnât . . .â
âHave sex? No.â
A small reliefâwe were at a bar, he made a pass, nothing happened. Iâm still a few steps above Justin on the moral high ground.
âSo how did I get back into my apartment?â
Scratch holds out an arm, beckons me closer. I reluctantly take a few steps but stop right at the edge of the porticoâs eave.
He takes a moment, looking me over. âIt suits you.â
âWhat?â
âThereâs no word in your language. Itâs a way we identify each other, not through our eyes, but with our souls. Our tribeâs unique mark. And Iâll answer your other question with one of my ownâhow did it feel being in the fishbowl just now? Did people see you?â
My throat swells, choking any possible reply.
No, it canât be .
âWas it like you were invisible?â he adds softly. âA ghost-twin?â
How does he know?!
âWas it like the very thing you wished for has come true?â He stands then, takes a step toward me but doesnât cross the boundary of the porticoâs eave. The rain hits his shoulders, cascades down his sleeves, and this close I see his skin too, with the same dark tinge I saw in my own reflection. Something magnetic about it, a strong gravitational pull.
He lifts his arms slightly, lets the rain hit his palms for a moment. I notice there are no lines on them. âBut at what cost?â
He snaps his