Free Allegiant by Veronica Roth

haven’t I met him?”
    “Because he’s dead. He was Divergent.” I shrug again, but I don’t feel casual about it. Amar was the first person who noticed that I was Divergent, and he helped me to hide it. But he couldn’t hide his own Divergence, and that killed him.
    She touches my arm, lightly, but doesn’t say anything. I shift, uncomfortable.
    “See?” I say. “Too many bad memories here. I’m ready to leave.”
    I feel empty, not because of sadness, but because of relief, all the tension flowing out of me. Evelyn is in that city, and Marcus, and all the grief and nightmares and bad memories, and the factions that kept me trapped inside one version of myself. I squeeze Tris’s hand.
    “Look,” I say, pointing at a distant cluster of buildings. “There’s the Abnegation sector.”
    She smiles, but her eyes are glassy, like a dormant part of her is fighting its way out and spilling over. The train hisses over the rails, a tear drops down Tris’s cheek, and the city disappears into the darkness.

CHAPTER
ELEVEN
    T RIS
    T HE TRAIN SLOWS down when we get closer to the fence, a signal from the driver that we should get off soon. Tobias and I sit in the doorway of the car as it moves lazily over the tracks. He puts his arm around me and touches his nose to my hair, taking a breath. I look at him, at the collarbone peeking out from the neck of his T-shirt, at the faint curl of his lip, and I feel something heating up inside me.
    “What are you thinking about?” he says into my ear, softly.
    I jerk to attention. I look at him all the time, but not always like that— I feel like he just caught me doing something embarrassing. “Nothing! Why?”
    “No reason.” He pulls me closer to his side, and I rest my head on his shoulder, taking deep breaths of the cool air. It still smells like summer, like grass baking in the heat of the sun.
    “It looks like we’re getting close to the fence,” I say.
    I can tell because the buildings are disappearing, leaving just fields, dotted with the rhythmic glow of lightning bugs. Behind me, Caleb sits near the other door, hugging his knees. His eyes find mine at just the wrong moment, and I want to scream into the darkest parts of him so he can finally hear me, finally understand what he did to me, but instead I just hold his stare until he can’t take it anymore and he looks away.
    I stand, using the handle to steady me, and Tobias and Caleb do the same. At first Caleb tries to stand behind us, but Tobias pushes him forward, right up to the edge of the car.
    “You first. On my mark!” he says. “And . . . go!”
    He gives Caleb a push, just enough to get him off the car floor, and my brother disappears. Tobias goes next, leaving me alone in the train car.
    It’s stupid to miss a thing when there are so many people to miss instead, but I miss this train already, and all the others that carried me through the city, my city, after I was brave enough to ride them. I brush my fingers over the car wall, just once, and then jump. The train is moving so slowly that I overcompensate with my landing, too used to running off the momentum, and I fall. The dry grass scrapes my palms and I push myself to my feet, searching the darkness for Tobias and Caleb.
    Before I find them, I hear Christina. “Tris!”
    She and Uriah come toward me. He is holding a flashlight, and he looks far more alert than he did this afternoon, which is a good sign. Behind them are more lights, more voices.
    “Did your brother make it?” Uriah says.
    “Yeah.” Finally I see Tobias, his hand gripping Caleb’s arm, coming toward us.
    “Not sure why an Erudite like you can’t get it through his head,” Tobias is saying, “but you aren’t going to be able to outrun me.”
    “He’s right,” says Uriah. “Four’s fast. Not as fast as me, but definitely faster than a Nose like you.”
    Christina laughs. “A what?”
    “Nose.” Uriah touches the side of his nose. “It’s a play on words.