Free The Pleasure of M by Michel Farnac

 it
 does
 convey
 a
 part
 of
 what
 is
 involved.
 
    Here,
 they
 call
 it
 ‘la
 petite
 mort’
 which
 would
 translate
 to
 the
 little
 death,
 and
 I
 find
 it
 
to
  be
  a
  very
  apt
  name.
  As
  soon
  as
  the
  explosion
  of
  the
  orgasm
  is
  over,
  there
  is
  a
 
contraction,
  a
  drawing
  inward
  of
  the
  senses.
  To
  some,
  any
  intrusion
  from
  the
 
outside
  at
  this
  point
  is
  unwelcome,
  be
  it
  the
  touch
  of
  a
  loving
  hand.
  The
  brain
  is
 
rejecting
  external
  stimulation
  after
  the
  intensity
  of
  the
  internal
  stimulation
  it
  just
 
underwent.
 It
 is
 as
 if
 one
 were
 seeking
 a
 form
 of
 sensory
 depravation
 to
 allow
 the
 
immense
  feeling
  of
  well-‐being
  that
  follows
  the
  orgasm
  to
  pervade
  the
  body
 
unhindered.
  The
  body
  is
  at
  once
  suffused
  with
  comfort
  and
  completely
  raw
  and
 
defenseless.
  Every
  sound,
  touch,
  smell,
  if
  not
  blocked,
  is
  amplified
  to
  the
  point
  of
 
overwhelming.
  We
  are
  blind,
  deaf,
  trembling,
  defenseless,
  at
  the
  mercy
  of
 
everything,
 floating
 in
 an
 ether
 of
 pleasure
 where
 gentle
 waves
 that
 are
 the
 echoes
 
of
 the
 orgasm
 wash
 over
 you
 in
 a
 slowly
 receding
 tide
 which
 as
 it
 wanes
 takes
 you
 
back
 ever
 so
 gently
 to
 the
 reality
 you
 left
 when
 the
 orgasm
 started.”
 He
 felt
 that
 they
 
had
 moved
 and
 paused
 briefly
 to
 listen
 to
 her
 breathing
 in
 his
 ear.
 “Of
 course,
 this
 is
 
only
 the
 way
 things
 can
 progress
 naturally
 if
 uninhibited.
 Needless
 to
 say
 that
 there
 
are
  a
  lot
  of
  men
  who
  could
  not
  allow
  this
  to
  happen.
  It
  is
  a
  loss
  of
  control
  that
  is
 
nearly
 total
 and
 which
 we
 all
 learn
 early
 on
 to
 harness,
 one
 way
 or
 the
 other.”
 
“So
 you
 can
 stop
 it?”
 
     
“In
  essence,
  yes.
  You
  can
  regain
  mastery
  of
  yourself.”
  He
  wondered
  where
  they
 
were.
 
     
“How
 do
 you
 do
 that?
 You
 seemed
 to
 describe
 something
 very
 powerful.”
 
    “Powerful
  it
  is,
  especially
  once
  it
  has
  begun,
  but
  a
  spell
  that
  can
  be
  broken
 
nonetheless.
 You
 see,
 it
 proceeds
 from
 a
 removal.
 The
 orgasm
 takes
 you
 away
 from
 
where
 and
 even
 who-‐with
 you
 are
 for
 a
 few
 instants,
 but
 you
 can
 pretty
 much
 beam
 
yourself
 back
 at
 any
 time,
 it
 is
 just
 a
 question
 of
 will.
 With
 a
 sometimes
 tremendous
 
effort
 you
 can
 grasp
 on
 to
 outside
 stimulus
 with
 a
 conscious
 effort
 and
 use
 it
 to
 stay
 
in
  the
  room,
  so
  to
  speak.
  Did
  you
  ever
  read
  that
  Matheson
  book,
  ‘Somewhere
  in
 
Time’?”
 And
 of
 course
 they
 were
 in
 a
 hotel
 room.
 
“Is
 that
 the
 one
 where
 he
 falls
 in
 love
 with
 a
 singer
 or
 an
 actress
 that
 died
 a
 century
 
before?”
 she
 asked.
 
    “Precisely.
 Well
 the
 character
 is
 in
 that
 place
 at
 the
 end,
 everything
 is
 going
 his
 way,
 
the
  dream
  is
  flesh,
  and
  he
  sticks