what?â
âYour childhood,â she prompted.
He shook his head. âYou donât really want to hear about my childhood, Sydney. Thereâs nothing the least bit normal about it.â
âI do.â There was a quiet, unshakable determination in her tone.
He set down his fork. Very deliberately, he held her gaze across the table. âAll right. My mother was an alcohol-sodden, self-centered bitch who should never have been allowed to breed. My father was a philanderer who found her so distasteful that he pretty much just distanced himself from the household. I was a lousy student. Anything else?â
Sydney didnât say a word. She just studied him, forso long that he began to feel ashamed of his curt recital.
âI wonder why he married her,â she said.
Danny uttered a bark of cynical laughter. âIâve often asked myself that. I think she must have gotten pregnant, or else told him she was. A trick like that would be something she would do.â
âYou sound as if youâre angry at her.â
Danny shook his head. âNot angry, exactly. My past is like a bad dream. I do best if I donât think about it.â
âBut things are better now.â There was certainty in her voice.
He hesitated, for some reason unwilling to be dishonest with her. âNot better, exactly. Butâ¦placid, I guess is a good way to describe life here.â
The little dimple in her left cheek winked at him. âI refuse to believe you live here surrounded by all this beauty, where it never snows and almost always rains at night, and arenât happy.â
He appreciated her attempt to lighten the mood. âI guess I am,â he said. As happy as Iâm ever likely to be again.
âYou are,â she said with certainty. âYou know, Iâve never been anywhere outside the Pacific Northwest except for family vacations to Yellowstone, Niagara Falls and Disney World, in Florida, and a trip down the California coast, where we saw a whole lot of redwoods and wineries.â
He had to chuckle. âSounds memorable.â
âNot when youâre eight and youâre stuck in the car for days on end. I always had to sit in the middle because Stuart and Shel would fight.â
Again, he was struck by the utterly normal sound of her childhood memories.
âDid you fight with Trent?â she was asking.
He shook his head. âNo.â
âAre you close in age?â
He shrugged. âThree years, which is enough to make a difference when youâre kids. And we hardly ever went to the same schools. My sisters were so much younger, I barely knew them.â
âHow many sisters do you have?â
âTwo,â he said. âKatieâs six years younger than I am and Ivyâs eight. I was sent away to school when they were still pretty young, so we never really had a chance to grow close.â
Sydneyâs blue eyes were soft and sympathetic. âYou were sent away?â
He nodded. âYeah. Better educational opportunities, all that jazz.â
âDid you like it?â
Did he like it? He debated telling her about the ridicule heâd endured from teachers who thought he was an easy mark because he wouldnât talk back, about the beatings for not making eye contact. About the freezing-cold showers and the weevils in the bread. About sleeping with a broken piece of metal bedrail because that was the only way he could protect himself from the older boysâ abuse. He debated telling her that hedidnât talk for eighteen months after Trent finally convinced their father, Jack, to get him out of there. âIt was hell on earth,â he finally said.
Sydneyâs eyes went wide. Apparently sheâd discerned some of the truth from what he hadnât said. âIt must have been,â she said. âAnd youâd already been through so much.â
âMy parents didnât know what to do with me,â he
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