Chapter One
Every time itâs my birthday or my brother Dannyâs birthday, my mother always says the same thing. She always says, âI remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. I remember when they put you in my arms. Iâll never forget.â
Hereâs a day Iâll never forget.
Seven thirty Friday morning. My dad is sitting at the kitchen table with his newspaper and his cup of coffee. My mom is atthe stove making eggs for me. I donât like eggs. But Iâm a vegetarian, so my mother makes me eat them so that Iâll get enough protein. The doorbell rings. My dad frowns slightly as he looks over the top of his paper at me. My mom turns from the stove and nods at me. Right. Go answer the door, Megan.
So I go. As I walk from the kitchen at the back of the house down the hall toward the front door, I wonder who it could be. Itâs way too early for it to be Caitlin or Shannon. We donât hook up until at least eight fifteen to walk to school. Maybe Caitlin had another fight with her mother. When that happens, she comes to my house and we go up to my room and she tells meâagainâhow she canât wait until the end of next year when she finishes high school, how the only universities sheâs going to apply to are going to be clear across the country, so far away that sheâll only have to see her mother on holidays, assuming she even decides to go home.
But it isnât Caitlin at the door.
Itâs two men in suits. One is tall and bulky. He looks like he could be a wrestler, except what would a wrestler be doing at our door at seven thirty in the morning? The other one is shorter and wiry. They both have serious expressions on their faces. The shorter one says, âIs your father or mother at home?â
âThey both are,â I say.
Behind me, I hear my mother yell, âWho is it, Megan?â
So I call back to her, âThereâs someone here who wants to talk to you or Dad.â I turn back to look at the two men, who are standing silent on the porch. The shorter one glances up at the taller one.
Then my mother comes down the hall, an apron over her skirt and silk blouse. She is district manager of a chain of video stores. She believes in dressing for success. She nudges me aside and looks at the two men in suits. I donât know for sure, but from the look on her faceI think maybe she thinks theyâre Jehovahâs Witnesses or something like that, here to try to save her.
âMrs. Carter?â the shorter man says.
Surprise registers on my motherâs face, and I realize they canât be Jehovahâs Witnesses. They know her name. Suddenly I get the feeling that something is wrong.
âAre you related to Daniel Carter?â the shorter man says.
Thatâs when it hits me. These guys are cops. I canât count the number of times I have told Danny how stupid he is. I canât count the number of times Iâve told him, One of these days youâre going to get busted. I canât count the number of times Iâve told him, What do you think Momâs going to do when the cops show up at the front door asking questions about you?
But you canât tell Danny anything. You never could. The company he keepsâhe thinks heâs smarter and tougher and faster than anyone else, especially the cops. But here they are, at our door, just likeI told him they would be one day. And now Momâs about to find out what Dannyâs been up to, and itâs going to kill her.
My mother is frowning. She knows that somethingâs wrong. She says, âHeâs my son. Why? Whatâs this all about?â
I think itâs about Danny finally getting busted. Itâs about him not being as smart and as tough and as fast as he thinks. Itâs about the cops not being as dumb and as slow as he always makes them out to be.
I hear a shuffling sound behind me. Itâs my dad, still in his slippers, the