most recent address I have for her is in New York City, so I thought Iâd start there.â
âDidnât you tell me that the letter you addressed to her in New York City came back, addressee unknown.â
âIt did, but Thirty-nine Fifth Avenue is an apartment building. If Iâm lucky, somebody still living there now will remember her.â
Ruth set her mug down on the black Formica tabletop, worry lining her normally smooth brow. âThe train, Hannah? Are you sure ?â
I shrugged. âHave to climb back on the horse that bucked you.â
âDoes Paul know what youâre up to?â
I rested my knife against the rim of my plate. âNo. He fussed that I was obsessing over Lilith and Zan, which is true. I was â am â obsessing over their story. Paul put up with it while I was recovering from the accident because it kept me home and out of trouble, but I think he was secretly pleased when I put the letters away and got back to my knitting.â
âSo to speak,â Ruth grinned.
âNo, really,â I grinned back. âI actually finished a sweater.â
âWonât Paul notice that youâre missing?â
I shook my head. âPaulâs in Colorado Springs.â
âWhat the hellâs he doing in Colorado?â
I tore off a bit of toast and dredged it through the egg yolk remaining on my plate. âThe NavyâAir Force game is today. Heâs flown out on a party plane with a bunch of his Naval Academy buddies.â
Ruth gave me a look that Iâd often seen on our motherâs face whenever we were trying to pull a fast one. âHeâs going to have a cow when he finds out!â
I shrugged. ââItâs much easier to apologize than it is to get permission,ââ I said, quoting Grace Hopper.
âSo, how come youâre not going to the game, Hannah?â
âNo scientific instrument yet invented is sensitive enough to measure how little I care about football.â
Ruth smothered a laugh with her napkin. âWant me to come to New York with you? I could get Neelie to cover the store for the day.â
Cornelia â nicknamed Neelie â was my widowed fatherâs girlfriend. The Alexander girls â my sisters, Ruth and Georgina, and I â thoroughly approved of Cornelia Gibbs and couldnât imagine why our father hadnât asked her to marry him yet. It had been almost a decade since our motherâs death. But we knew from experience that there was little to be gained from pushing the man. Thereâs not much you can tell a retired navy captain. Theyâre accustomed to being in charge.
âI appreciate the concern, Big Sis, but some challenges simply have to be faced alone.â
The waitress appeared, and Ruth held out her mug for a refill. âItâs your funeral, Hannah, but for heavenâs sake, be careful!â
An hour and a half later, I parked my car in the Amtrak garage at BWI and bought a ticket on the next train to New York City. I thought I had the Train Thing under control until the Northeaster actually pulled into the station and it was time to climb aboard.
One step forward, two steps back, the heebie-jeebies had taken hold. Except for the conductor, I was alone on the platform.
âAre we holding you up?â asked the conductor. âYou getting on or just sightseeing?â
I took a deep breath, and dashed up the steps into one of the middle cars before I had a chance to change my mind.
Three hours later, I got off at Penn Station.
Miraculously unscathed.
Itâs a twenty-five minute hike from Penn Station to 39 Fifth, but cabs can be expensive, so I ruled them out. I had no appointments, no schedule to keep, so Iâd planned a leisurely stroll along a route that would take me past Macyâs windows and down Broadway. I took my time doing it, too, zigging across town on the numbered streets and zagging down the avenues, enjoying