Free Borrowed (Embracing Series) by Delisa Lynn

I know it’s wrong, but fuck…It feels so right. And no it’s just not my vajayjay talking. It’s all of me. Please can we just pretend like no one else matters right now?” she said as she started kissing me hard, she pushed me down and straddled me. She was grinding on me and had me so hard, my zipper was imprinting my cock.
    I wanted to be buried balls deep inside of her sexiness. I couldn’t though. I had a conscious and I knew she was engaged to someone else. I wanted more than anything to unzip my pants and bury myself in that sweet pussy.
    “Tatum, we can’t do this love. It’s all wrong, I can’t do this here or now.” I said sitting up, she started crying. Fuck, one minute I give her the greatest orgasm she has probably ever had, and now I made her cry.
    “Don’t cry baby, I want you. Trust me, I want you more than any fucking thing. It’s just wrong right now. You are going to marry someone else. Thayer is going to be your life. If you tell me right now, you will leave him for me I will make love to you up and down this river bank. But I can’t as long as I know you are going back to his bed.” I said as I felt the unshed tears forming in my eyes.
    “I can’t Evan, I have to go back to Thayer. He is my fiancé and he loves me.” She said as she stood up and fixed her clothes.
    “Where do we go from here? Tatum, I can’t lose you as a friend. I love you to goddamn much.”
    “Evan, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I will always love you.” She said as she placed a kiss to my lips and walked away.
    Thanksgiving ended up being very awkward, I knew Zander sensed the vibe between his sister and me. She left that day and didn’t speak to me again. We all had dinner and she just talked when spoken to. I hated that I hurt her, but I just couldn’t be with her knowing she was going back to him.
     

     
    I called and text Lila, several times and never heard anything back from her. I was getting kind of worried, because she always returned my messages. I was meeting her at the airport, so I just went in hopes that she would be there. I could see her walking toward me, she had a huge smile on her face. The closer we got to each other I could feel my smile spreading.
    “I have missed you, gorgeous” I said as I pulled her in for a hug and kissed her cheek. I decided not to tell her about Tatum, just in case what we had was going somewhere, I didn’t want her to be jealous. Because Tatum would always be in my life, no matter who I was with.
    “Evan, I missed you too. There is something I need to tell you though, please don’t be mad at me. But I have a boyfriend, his name is Liam and he is Addison’s cousin. We have been together for about nine months, he is in the Army. I just didn’t know how to tell you, I really like you and enjoy our time together.”
    “He is the one that was there when your ex cheated on you, his cousin. I’m sorry I just assumed you were single, you had never mentioned anyone. I understand though.” I said as I placed my hand on her hand.
    “Still friends?”
    “Of course we are, darlin’.”
    “Good, I was afraid of losing you.” She said with a slight frown.
    “Never going to happen love.” I said as I rubbed my hand on hers.
    I dropped her, off and went home. I had so much going through my fucking mind. I called Zeb’s to see if I could come and play. I just wanted to get lost in the music. No country music tonight though, I told the manager I would play something different and they would still love it. I headed over to the bar.
    “How y’all doing tonight? Most if you already know who I’m, but if you don’t, my name is Evan and I’m a law student at NYU. I love country music, but tonight I’m going to do a something a little different. I hope you all enjoy.” I said as I placed my feet on my stool.
    I started singing the lyrics of Nickleback’s “Trying Not to Love You.” I had never played this type of song on my guitar and I was a little