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Dear Nobody,
    Last night Vickie and I drove to Sam’s house to wait for Geoff, planning to all go out together after he arrived. I figured it’d be a shade awkward, but guessed he and I would basically just ignore each other. My dreamlike optimism led me to hope Geoff might even apologize, or at the very least just be nice to me. Dream on, Mary Rose!
    When he arrived (half an hour late), he started frantically screaming at me again. He even yelled at Vickie. He gave me the money he owed me—which was $5 short—and started screaming even louder when I mentioned that he had shorted me. Then, as we went to get into the car, he screamed at me and Vickie that we could not go with him and Sam. She was as shocked and appalled as I was, so we finally got in her car and left. We went back to my house and watched a movie.
    After that I went to my grandparents for the weekend.
    Now it’s Monday and I haven’t spoken to Vickie since Friday night, and she owes me $30. I hope to talk to her today. I have off today (and tomorrow). I was hoping she’d have off this afternoon too, but she’s working till around four. I’ll call her then to get my money and see if she wants to do anything.

Dear Nobody,
    Mom said Traci called me when I was in rehab. I haven’t talked to her for a while. I should call her. Since getting back, I’ve been wanting to hang out with her again—even though there has been some drama—we are still pretty good friends. No matter what rumors are going around, I will always love her, because Traci knows all the worst shit about me, and she doesn’t care.
    Should I ask her what REALLY happened? Get HER side of the story?
    It’s probably just a rumor; but here’s what I heard happened. I heard that while I was in rehab, Traci got drunk with Geoff—and she kissed him. I talked to Geoff about it, and he said he didn’t do anything. He said he just ignored her. I don’t really think he would have kissed her—she’s the one who kissed him first. I just wonder if he kissed back or not? He says he didn’t.
    I’m not going to stop hanging out with Traci because of a stupid rumor, but maybe I should trust her as far as I could spit on her.
    Oh, well.
    This friend of mine, Pete, called Traci a Mary-Rose-Wannabe. Pete’s really cool. We get along okay except his mom hates me—almost everyone’s parents do. He’s the sweetest guy that I know right now. Maybe if Geoff and I break up again, I’ll ask Pete to the movies.
    Geoff told me he was sick of us always arguing when we are together. I’ve punched him in the face during some arguments—but only when I’m drunk. It really hurts his feelings. Thankfully he’s never hit me back, and never would. Since getting back together, I’ve stopped getting drunk enough to punch him, but we still argue a lot.
    He can be really thoughtless.
    Last night on the phone, he told me he wanted me to leave him alone and forget about him. He said that he didn’t care either way if he ever saw or talked to me again. And that really, really hurt.
    I wonder how he’d feel if I died tonight? Or tomorrow?

Dear Nobody,
    Man, I bet I know why Geoff acted so extra-mean the last time I talked to him. And I have a feeling that Vickie may have played a big part in it, too. See I talked shit about Geoff to Vickie, and Vickie must have told Sam, and Sam must have told Geoff. I know Vickie can’t stand me. She’s really only nice to me when she needs money. She’s a real miserable bitch when she doesn’t need anything. It’s just that I don’t have anyone else to hang out with, except for maybe a few other girls that I could start to chill with (they don’t just USE me, or treat me like SHIT).
    Well, I’ll have to get my money back before I ask Vickie if she told Sam to tell Geoff everything I said.
    FUCK THEM!
    I