probably at Shawnaâs house, wherever that is.
âHi, Ms. Lessard. I havenât seen Amy since last night. At the party.â
âWhat party?â
Oh shit. Amy told her mom she was going to Monicaâs place to work on a dance routine. Ms. Lessard is very down on parties. It occurs to me that down on is the opposite of down with . I smile to myself. Amy would think that was funny too.
âEric? What party? Where?â
When I donât answer right away she says, âEric, I donât care about the party. I just need to know where she is.â
âI left the party earlyâwe had a fight.â
âA fight?â
âYeah. No big deal. I wanted to go, she wanted to stay. She said sheâd call a cab to get home.â
âYou left her there. Alone.â It sounds more like a statement than an accusation. But I still feel the need to defend myself. Ms. Lessard is always nice to me, but I donât think she trusts me, exactly.
âHer friends were there. And she wasnât drunk or anything. And sheâd never get a ride with someone whoâd been drinking. Never. You know that.â
Thereâs silence on the other end of the line, as if both Beth and her mother are holding their breath. Remembering.
âCall me if you hear anything, Eric,â Ms. Lessard finally says. âAnything at all.â
I ride my bike over to the party houseâor what I think is the party house. Itâs in a neighborhood I donât usually go to. The houses are old and run-down and chopped into apartments. The front yards are mostly paved over and filled with crapârusty car parts, battered kidsâ toys. Lots of chainlink fencing and bars over windows. But thereâs the house. I know itâs the right one because I remember the neon Bud Light sign in the front window. Itâs still lit, as if the bar is still open. But there is no bar. And the front door is opened by a tired-looking woman with a toddler clinging to her knee.
âWhat do you want?â she says.
âUh, Iâm looking for my girlfriend.â
âYou one of Devonâs friends?â She squints at me. Not unfriendly. More like she needs glasses. Sheâs not as old as I first thought. Maybe in her late teens.
I donât know anyone named Devon, but I nod. If Devon threw the party, I need to talk to him.
She sighs. âYou help trash my house last night?â She swings the door wide open, and I can see the mess inside.
It smells vile, like piss and booze and cigarettes and vomit.
âNo way,â I say. âI left early. Iâm really sorry though.â
She shrugs and picks up the toddler. âNot your fault, I guess. No girls here though. Just my lazy-ass brother.â
âCan I talk to him?â
She steps aside and motions toward a door decorated with a Tupac poster. I bang on the door and a muffled voice says, âEff off, Cara.â
Cara steps up to the door and opens it. âWatch your mouth, Devon,â she says. âYou got a visitor. And itâs time to clean up.â
Devon groans and rolls over in his bed, turning his back to the door.
âUnca Devvy sleepy,â the toddler says.
âNot anymore, sweetie,â Cara replies. She hands me the kid and steps across the room to yank her brother out of bed. Sheâs pretty strongâor else heâs wasted. Either way, Devon stumbles past me as Cara drags him into a small messy kitchen. Iâm still holding the toddler, who starts to cry. Cara says to Devon, âThis guyâs looking for his girlfriend. Tell him what you know and then get your shoes onâthereâs broken glass everywhere. Haley and I are going to her Water Babies classâand this place better be clean by the time we get back. Understood?â
Devon nods as his sister takes Haley from me and leaves the room. He slumps in the chair and puts his head on the table.
âI was here last night,â