âHello? Anybody here?â in case Iâve missed somethingâanother door, a loft, a secret staircase. I am met with silence. I stagger over to the kitchen and open the fridge. Itâs jammed with Tetra Paks of milk and juice. Thereâs a loaf of multigrain bread, a head of leafy lettuce, a few tomatoes, some carrots, a package of Kraft Singles, three apples and three oranges. My stomach lurches. Whoever has brought me here isnât planning on feeding me for long. Iâm not sure if thatâs good or bad. Under the sink is a blue recycling bin, the only hit of color in the whole place.
One cupboard is full of paper plates, bowls and cups, all made from recycled material. Another cupboard reveals a selection of organic cereal. Buckwheat. Kamut. Ugh. Thereâs a jar of peanut butter too. The kind I hate, made with sugar. One drawer holds bamboo cutlery. Another holds small packets of sugar, salt, pepper, ketchup, mustard, mayo and soy sauceâthe kind you get in fast-food restaurants. Weird. A third drawer is full of lined yellow notepads and Sharpies. Weirder.
I head back to the bathroom and find miniature bottles of shampoo and conditioner in the glass shower stall (thereâs no bathtub), some small bars of wrapped soap and a selection of sample-size body lotions and hand creams. The counter beside the sink holds Kleenex, a pink toothbrush (oohâmore color!) and a travel-size tube of toothpaste. Under the sink is a stack of toilet paper. Am I in a hotel? It feels impersonal, like no one lives here.
Iâm starting to feel dizzy againâand scared. I need to sit down. I make my way slowly to the table and collapse into the molded-plastic chair. On the table is something I hadnât noticed before: a white envelope. With my name on it.
Chapter Two
Eric
Amy isnât answering her phone or responding to texts. Thatâs not like her at all. Even when weâre fighting, she always wants to talk. We joke about the four words no guy ever wants to hear: We need to talk. With Amy, itâs all about communication. She says itâs because she watched her parentsâ marriage shrivel up and die. Like a plant getting no water, she says. And talking is the water on the plant of a relationship. She actually says shit like that. Her parents broke up after Bethâs accident. So we talk. A lot. When we canât talk, we text. So this isnât like her. Not like her at all.
I call her house and Beth answers.
âIs Amy there?â I ask.
âDonât think so,â Beth says. âHang on. Iâll check.â I can hear her yelling Amyâs name. Then she comes back on the line. âNope, not here. And she was gonna drive me to physio. When you talk to her, tell her to call me.â
âOkay,â I say. After I hang up, I start calling Amyâs friendsâour friends. People who were at the party last night. No one has seen her, and almost everyone asks me why the hell Iâm calling so early.
âItâs eleven oâclock already,â I say, over and over.
âDude,â Cole says, âsheâs probably at that chick Shawnaâs place. They were dancing last night. Girl on girl. It was hot. I thought you were gonna get some three-way action.â
âShut up,â I say, even though I agree. It was hot, and I had thought about the possibilities. None of us really know Shawna. She doesnât go to our school, and I donât have her number. No idea where she lives. Or if sheâd ever do a three-way.
My phone rings. Amyâs home number.
âWhere have you been?â I say when I pick up.
âUh, Eric. Itâs me, Beth. Mom just got up. Sheâs asking where Amy is. Any luck with your friends?â
âEric? Eric?â Amyâs mom comes on the line. Another kind of three-way. Gross. How can I even be thinking about stuff like that when Amy is missing? Missing. She canât be. Sheâs